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  1. CELESTIAL CIEL

    The darkest side of angura is slowly dying... Who's next, gewalt? Dagashikashi?
  2. I feel myself so sick and can't listen to bands I love because of memories about everything happened this year. Fck, I just want some avelcain or RES but when I'm trying to play my winter playlists, and can't stop tears from falling. 

    1. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      I messed up friendship with the most amazing person in this universe because of my homoromanticism, and now when she's too far away I understand I'll love her until the last breath ahahah aaah... Planning suicide right before my 26 birthday, it still looks like a happy ending. 

    2. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      I'm visiting psychiatrist twice a week and he laughing at me. I'm cutting myself again. 

    3. saiko

      saiko

      Your psychiatrist is laughing at you? That's is very far from being ethic. Btw, why don't you try psychoanalisis? Unless you have some symptoms that require the appropriate medication to make them go down (delirium, hallucinations, panic attacks), psychic suffering does not necessarily need pharmaceutical interventions. It's actually a matter of speaking and listening to oneself's deep dilemmas...

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  3. Как никогда жалею, что в Питере не сыскать бесплатного лгбт-френдли психотерапевта, который не хмыкает снисходительно и не советует "лечиться" скорейшим вступлением в "здоровые" отношения с православным мужчиной, регулярным сексом и выбором в пользу семьи между скорейшей в плане исполнения перспективой жить и работать в другой стране. Единственное, что хочется после этих сеансов - изуродовать своё тело ещё больше или сразу попытаться снова умереть.
  4. If rands will disband until next october I'll kill Karma I swear 

  5. I was scrolling closetchild aaaand if you are interested you can buy it here!(。•̀ᴗ-)و ̑̑✧ https://www.closetchild-cd.jp/phone/product/63951
  6. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Remember his first solo picture? it was kiyoharu's cosplay too xD
  7. CELESTIAL CIEL

    3 weeks until live, yasss I liked their first lineup but they're still alive and awesome
  8. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Fck I need Byou to die in peace
  9. Karma accepted instafollow request asdfghjkl 

  10. better than dir en gr*y

     

  11. is everything that bad if I was looking for a certain thing and google advised me to contact a local suicide hotline

    1. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      @Manji 卍 now I want to phone them just to talk... It's quite strange to realize that there's something I can't tell even to my parents, like, thoughts about killing myself and how miserable I feel myself because of absolutely sick addiction to my only friend...

    2. Manji 卍

      Manji 卍

      I understand you,I'm in need of the same thing,but feels like there's no one that I can open myself about such thoughts. I've tried some therapist and stuff but it feels weird paying someone just to listen to your problems. I think you should try to phone them,you got nothing to lose trying it

    3. BrenGun

      BrenGun

      You always can call such hotline,

       

       

      for me nothing works, because I know my problem, and the way to happiness there isn't any simple solotion for. talking with a random person doesn't work, doesn't solve anything. But someday I hope to hit the right road so that I really can smile daily happy! 

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  12. CELESTIAL CIEL

    I can't stop crying, I hate this sick feeling when you're sure that the only person you need never will talk to you as sweet and friendly as before... I want her support, it's not that difficult... but it seems it is...
  13. A friendly reminder to myself: l*ve scks。

  14. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Ah. Sounds like 2006... cant stop listening to this album, absolutely iconic
  15. https://www.esp.ac.jp/language/en/ wow is it real to graduate from this college and officially work as manager or staff? I mean, with work visa, etc... Errrm it's really sad I can't continue medical career because medical college or university are much more expensive than any other speciality... So I have no idea what to do after school, lol... 

    1. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      @Masato I mean I have trouble with career after japanese language school, college or university, doesn't matter... 

    2. dovesi

      dovesi

      get married to a rich businessman already

    3. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      @dovesi did you get yours? No? So that's the answer. 

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  16. CELESTIAL CIEL

    fck I miss 2008 again
  17. When I wanted to follow Taa-incho on twitter、 I never expected him to send tons of cute emojis。。i mean wow、i was Lulu fangirl years and years ago(ⓛ ω ⓛ *)

    1. Duwang

      Duwang

      He's always been that way. lol He's a super chill guy.

  18. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Please somobody tell Byou to join them and I'll send them all my fcken money
  19. CELESTIAL CIEL

    I don't care if he will never come back as musician, it will be enough to know he's happy with his current life.
  20. CELESTIAL CIEL

    I was sure this band must be inactive, I don't like korean music but they were nice, in 2011 or so... but few months ago their vocalist followed me on instagram and it's sad to see nothing but aggressive promotion...
  21. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Since when the main reason to move to Japan isn't visual kei events... I'm not sure about her feelings for me, but she's my reason to live... I can't be myself, I want to die, I'm tired of having suicidal thoughts, but I'll keep my promise, I swear.
  22. Still makes me laugh every time I see it oh dear

     

    1. ahnchc

      ahnchc

      lmaaaoooosdofsokskksks 1:48 takes me out every single time

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