CELESTIAL CIEL

If the person you love doesn't understand that in a relationship both individuals have their own interests and activities, and lovers don't need to like 100% the same stuff, or if she judges you because she doesn't understand VK, maybe they're not mature enough yet for a relationship. IDK. But love hurts so I feel ya.

She moved to Japan this October just bc she's hardcore bangyaru. She's into modern vkei (I'm more into 90s vkei...), and I started to listen some bands she likes, gyaro, morrigan, etc, I rrrreally loved them... I know she loved lareine/versailles, Luci'fer luscious violenoue and her projects, and it was a huuuge part of my "childhood"... So I can't listen to bands I used to like,  from my past or something I discovered because of her tastes, and it makes me closer to kill myself, I'm exhausted. I'm tired of losing everyone I love and everything that could be my protection. I'm a real loner, but when I meet someone I want to keep, after a couple peaceful months everything is burning down. Like if I never deserved all this love and attention and everything was just a sick narcissism with sadistic dreams of being the one and the only. I left my friends bc she seemed so disappointed when someone was trying to be a bit closer to me. I loved it, I really appreciate this, I don't need someone else if she makes me think she's close to me and it will never ends. I'm ready to be hurt, but something went wrong... and she seems so passive aggressive when we're talking.   It lasts about a year, and we were friends for a couple of years before...