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CELESTIAL CIEL

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CELESTIAL CIEL last won the day on February 10

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About CELESTIAL CIEL

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    angelic knight
  • Birthday 11/20/1992

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    80s post-punk, 90s visual kei, compulsive cds and merch buying(笑)

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  1. Soulmates never die.

  2. It's so hard to like something that also likes the person you adore. I'm about to quit vkei and die alone just because I love her so much, I'm so tired of being rejected. I can't keep my tears from falling. This year was really awesome... But God why, do I really deserve this pain.

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    2. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      She judges me because I love her. That's all.

    3. Cantavanda

      Cantavanda

      I can feel your exhausting pain through your writing. Even though I don't really understand how a music taste can destroy an entire relationship, especially if she's interested in Japan herself. But I don't need to understand, I just hope you will feel better soon!

    4. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      It's not about tastes, it's about how hard to like something that also likes that person, when even listening to some bands just brings nothing but pain, and there's a lot of things around that makes me feel worse, because I can't stop thinking about her. When I listen to bands we both like, when scrolling mh news and notice new bands she probably already know... Aah. Is it real madness. IDK... 

  3. I hate myself so much. 

  4. It's so sad that Takken left, as long as I can remember he was in every Eiji's band starting from kodomo a. And in the very beginning "matsutake" was a project of matsuoka/takemura...
  5. CELESTIAL CIEL

    /insert here a complete list of balenciaga adepts/
  6. CELESTIAL CIEL

    I hope this time they will be more goth than industrial(?)...
  7. CELESTIAL CIEL

    The darkest side of angura is slowly dying... Who's next, gewalt? Dagashikashi?
  8. I feel myself so sick and can't listen to bands I love because of memories about everything happened this year. Fck, I just want some avelcain or RES but when I'm trying to play my winter playlists, and can't stop tears from falling. 

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    2. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      I messed up friendship with the most amazing person in this universe because of my homoromanticism, and now when she's too far away I understand I'll love her until the last breath ahahah aaah... Planning suicide right before my 26 birthday, it still looks like a happy ending. 

    3. CELESTIAL CIEL

      CELESTIAL CIEL

      I'm visiting psychiatrist twice a week and he laughing at me. I'm cutting myself again. 

    4. saiko

      saiko

      Your psychiatrist is laughing at you? That's is very far from being ethic. Btw, why don't you try psychoanalisis? Unless you have some symptoms that require the appropriate medication to make them go down (delirium, hallucinations, panic attacks), psychic suffering does not necessarily need pharmaceutical interventions. It's actually a matter of speaking and listening to oneself's deep dilemmas...

  9. Как никогда жалею, что в Питере не сыскать бесплатного лгбт-френдли психотерапевта, который не хмыкает снисходительно и не советует "лечиться" скорейшим вступлением в "здоровые" отношения с православным мужчиной, регулярным сексом и выбором в пользу семьи между скорейшей в плане исполнения перспективой жить и работать в другой стране. Единственное, что хочется после этих сеансов - изуродовать своё тело ещё больше или сразу попытаться снова умереть.
  10. If rands will disband until next october I'll kill Karma I swear 

  11. I was scrolling closetchild aaaand if you are interested you can buy it here!(。•̀ᴗ-)و ̑̑✧ https://www.closetchild-cd.jp/phone/product/63951
  12. CELESTIAL CIEL

    Remember his first solo picture? it was kiyoharu's cosplay too xD
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