patientZERO

I've always respected and agreed with what you had to say and most of your taste in music. Haha!

^ Thanks, i feel honored to hear that! XD

It's MALISEND.
 

It's MALISEND.
 

It's MALISEND.
 

It's MALISEND.
 

When they released the first of their digital singles, they did say they'd announce the new guitarist's soon ... and then never did.

They only played like 10 songs and talked a lot, but since it was in the middle of the woods, they were pretty quiet and I couldn't understand much. Hopefully they post it after. I'll keep you posted if I see it pop up.

Without the obvious Maria Cross mention, or super indie stuff that's produced in their bedrooms, this whole band is just ... fucked.
 
 

They think they're making it easier to integrate things to your iphone, but honestly it seems to be getting worse and worse with every "update."

Judging by the lyrics of that one band that just got posted, there's no way in hell they're serious. It's definitely parody, which happens to be the hotness in VK as well, so they're killing two popularity birds with one shit music stone.

Congrats! Finding a job in this environment is especially difficult, so I commend you on your accomplishment!

Congrats! Finding a job in this environment is especially difficult, so I commend you on your accomplishment!

Oh shit! I didn't know he had another album coming out. I don't like K-pop, but a fan recommended his first mixtape like four years ago and I really liked it.

I've tried that. His voice doesn't bother me as much as the fact that 99% of songs they layer his voice with so much processing and "harmonies" that it just sounds fake. Let alone the fact that most of Kizu's songs all sound the same. If it's a single they have a part of the song that's him saying lala or ooh ooh or some other non-verbal melody ... there's a lot of talent there, but I just don't get the allure.

Your neighbors are totally shooting porn.

I want to get married, have kids, and have a life with her and I'm running out of time. I'm over 30 and I'm watching everyone around me live the life I wish I could. Is it harsh of me to ask the question of whether or not it's worth continuing if she doesn't want to get married? I know you're just an outside party on the internet, but sometimes it's easier to hear/get advice that way. Thank you for listening and offering your time and advice. I've just sat at home unable to move or do anything since. This just all comes as a shock because from the moment we got serious, she's known that I always wanted to get married and always dreamed of starting a family. Why now the change of heart?

Firstly, my condolences bro. Very sorry to hear this. Had you proposed to her already?
 
Secondly, you said "i'm not worth it". Throw that bullshit thought in the trash where it belongs. I know you are hurt, and I feel your pain, but just because this chick doesn't want to marry, it doesn't mean that you are not worth it, or that you're not worth marrying. You gotta it in your head that "you're the prize" no matter what, and realize and respect your own worth.
 
Lastly, I know you love this girl, but if you truly want to marry and this girl does not want to, then I think you'd be doing yourself a huge disservice by staying with her (and eventually causing yourself more pain). If you stay hoping that this girl will change her mind, then you will only be deceiving yourself (and wasting more time).
 
If you want to marry - stand on that, and do not change YOUR vision just because SHE wants something else. Think about it. This girl been with you three years. That's way more than enough time to decide if you want to marry someone or not. Look at this for what it is and do not deceive yourself. You've been dating this girl for 3 years, and she doesn't want to commit? Basically, she letting you know "i'm ok with fucking this dude and wasting his time, but I don't want to commit to him. I'll just hang around until #1 I get bored, or #2 I find something else".
 
Let your Yes be your yes, and your No's be your No's - anything else is manipulation.
 
You ain't gotta go out like that bro.
 
Many people do not understand marriage. Marriage is not a piece of paper. It's not a social construct, it's not a financial agreement, a legal contract, a ring or a dress. It's literally the process of two becoming one.
 
If that is what you truly desire, you cannot afford to waste your time and energy on wishy-washy people who are not intentional. People who just wanna drift and "see where things go". Nah, fuck that. Relationships are serious, and from what you've told us about this girl, she just seems to want the benefits of a relationship without the commitment. And that's suspect as hell...
 
Obviously, you should make your own decision...and whatever you choose to do, make sure you're doing it because YOU truly want to do it....don't do anything just to please this girl, and definitely don't do anything out of the fear of how she'll respond. Do it FOR YOU.
 
And I'll leave with this. But if you if you decide to part ways with this girl, realize that there are PLENTY of women out there that want the same thing that you do. Do not sacrifice your values for this girl thinking that you won't find anyone else. Because you certainly will....and you'll find someone who WILL happy to embrace your values and chase your goals WITH YOU. That's a far better deal than dealing with this silliness.
 
When I met my woman, I let her know from the very beginning what my plans were and what I expected. I ain't got time to play these wishy-washy games with anyone. I don't play any of that shit. Now at that point, it was up to her whether she wanted to join me or keep it moving. She decided to come along for the ride.
 
You don't have to tolerate anything that you don't want to. Don't sell yourself short.

Thank you all for your advice. I left the ball in her court after this all happened earlier today, so I'm just going to sit and wait. She knows this is a big deal and maybe she just needs time to process everything, but all I know is there's nothing I can do about it right now other than cry. It saddens me that she's flip-flopped about this issue, but it saddens me more and I fear how she'll react if this truly isn't the life she wants and I move on, or at least try to.

nurié, カカトオトシ。(KAKATOOSHI.), リブラヴェル (Libravel) ... and gulu gulu.

It's wonderful to hear that you had a great time in Japan and at the live. I love how intimate and heartwarming VK lives at smaller livehouses can be, giving both the fans and the musicians/band a very memorable experience. Aside from the live, I agree with the cuisine part! It's one of my favorites parts - eating authentic Japanese food at the restaurants and food stalls. I always sorely miss it after leaving. Fingers crossed for your permanent move to Japan!

It fills my heart to read all this. They really do get along and it shows that it’s not just a bunch of dudes stuck together by a contract, and that friendship and passion shows on stage. 
Ricko is such a bright and pure person, he really is one of the nicest people I’ve met. I’m happy to hear he was happy. 
 
Omg please let me know how Sena sings 🤣
Zyean is awesome, period. He’s so chill and easy to talk to and tries his best to speak English with foreign fans lol I hope you get a chance to go to a M&G someday. They are really fun to interact with. 
 

I only saw people holding out Zyean checki for the most part. My guess was gya mostly wanted Ricko's as it was his birthday live and he spent a LOT of time taking cheki back stage before the encore because he cosplayed as Hyde from L'arc en Ciel. They pulled a prank on him since it was his birthday. Boogie and Sena told the crowd that they were going to give him this tiny piece of cake and then after that, they'd play a few songs until the final song and then surprise him again with a real cake. So Ricko came out, got the crowd hyped for the encore and then the background synth started playing Happy Birthday. Boogie walked out with a TINY piece of cake and went to hand it to Ricko, after Ricko reluctantly said thank you and Boogie took a huge bite out of it and then walked away! We all laughed, they played a L'arc cover, another song and then Ricko went "This last song is called ... BLOOD ... FUCKING ... SHOT!!!" And they all played the first bar of the song before the birthday music hit again. Ricko's back was facing the crowd and he just stood there, and went "he~?" into the mic. It was super hilarious. Boogie brought out the real cake and they all said some words about Ricko and his impact on their lives and the band. Zyean was pretty soft-spoken (I've never really heard him talk much before) and was saying how nice Ricko was and how they had similar interests in games and such and Ricko started crying. He held it in pretty well, and then cracked a bit again when Sena started talking. It was a pretty astounding experience. I stood out like a sore thumb being the only gaijin and probably one of six or so men, but I could visibly see the band were excited to see a male gaijin at such a small show.
 
I still haven't watch it, but the DVD I got was the SZ version. I have to say, too, that Ricko made his way up to number 2 for me after seeing him live. He's so energetic, and ALWAYS on key. He didn't hit a flat note the whole live, plus he was smiling ear-to-ear the whole time. Zyean's still my dude and it was real cool seeing him sing backing on some songs, Boogie too.

My girlfriend lives in Tokyo and it was my first time being back in Japan in three years. From the second I got out of the airport, I could instantly feel the difference between Tokyo and Osaka, but I went to spend time with her, so I didn't care. We did a lot of fun, proper couple things together like go to Tokyo Disney Sea and Tokyo Tower and I ate a LOT of delicious food. I missed real Japanese cuisine, like okonomiyaki and such. I only ended up going to two lives because the bands I wanted to see weren't in Tokyo for the two weeks I was there, but I did end up seeing ゆくえしれずつれづれ and KAQRIYOTERROR on Christmas Eve (a very unique experience seeing such groups, especially as a foreigner) and JILUKA on my birthday, which was also Ricko's birthday live. The JILUKA live house was TINY, so it felt quite intimate and Ricko instantly noticed me as a foreigner and pointed right at me in the middle of one song and gave me a huge smile and thumb's up. Sena did the same a bunch of times. They talked a lot and I could only understand about a third of it, but the live itself was still a lot of fun. Afterward I got to see the side of VK that I didn't see when I was in Osaka before since I saw mostly metal bands (NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST, Deviloof, Dir en grey) where there was a huge queue for cheki and girls standing on the side of line holding up their unwanted cheki from members they didn't like. It felt a bit sad, and I thought that if Boogie or Zyean walked by, they'd be saddened by how few bangya wanted their cheki. I still find the concept of cheki itself a bit weird, but it's what sells the most and gets the band the most money. In the end, I ended up buying the live-exclusive blanket and muffler (the blanket is tiny and the muffler is actually misprinted, with the logo on the wrong side) and the XND t-shirt, which netted me a DVD for spending over 4000Y. I haven't watched it yet, but I can only assume it's something I'll only view one, at max.
 
I could go on and on, but I don't want to bore. It was memorable and I didn't want to leave.