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I miss アヲイ so f**king much it‘s hurting me. I know it’s been a hell of time already but, knowing that time won’t go back, it makes me feel so desperate, nostalgia and grieve are hitting me like hell right now. They were too good, they will live forever in their terrific songs. I will be so glad and honored when I’m gone while listening to them and their sorrowful lullabies. I wonder how each of them is doing in real life, specially Otogi. I’m all like this since I remembered they were one of my almost inexistent crying shoulders there for me, touching me with each of their songs and their lyrics meaning, while no one else was there for me. I don’t know how should I feel about remembering the really f**ked up past I used to have nowadays, but I’m so glad I was able to know them. It’s kind of irremediably sad, the fact that the things they did as アヲイare deeply engraved in my brain, truly romanticizing bad mental health, as I believe it’s my nature form, as if I was raised like that in my entire life. 

When ur roomie creates a fake Grindr account and uses it to make you believe for a week u have found the ideal husbando and then he reveals truth and all roomies rofl at you bc they all knew and even gave you some "advices" for the moment you would finally "meet" the guy.

Never noticed the MH all-in-yukata/kimono PINKU-ISSHU banner. It's pretty cute. uwu ♡

I'm kinda nervous to see THE SOUND BEE HD live (even if it's at the local con l o l) cause I don't know how should I enjoy the show since there will be a lot of "yohio fans-type" in the crowd. It is not like tsbhd is the purest representation of vk though.

be~~ my~~ caramel popcorn uvu♡

vk boys I miss: ヱレキテル式のKuromitsu, アヲイのOTG/Sho.,  ネガのYuu, V-last.のShyena, AvelCainのkarma, NovAのRiona/Mia, 妃阿甦のTakayuki.

Just finished reading KS, now I'm in this state where you feel something important's missing irl.

I wanna cry for my dears

Even if I'm doing it with cracking words, I'd want to protect you with this living voice

You will cry for your dreams

Even though, supposing, they're unreachable ideals

Please let me listen to them, the time they're shining  

サディ/声

oh gawd, Killing Stalking is getting kinda interesting at this point(?) *reading chapter 2* t_t I don't know what to feel

HIRAHIRA tooo~♪♫ mai ochiru ha~~nafubuki
sakura, sakura~ yakusoku shiyou~
kimi tooo~ boku ga kono sa~ki mo
wara~~tte wara~~tte, mata aeru you ni♡
 

Even when you reached your arms in the sea of stars
You lost the paddles that you started to row, "I can't move from here!"

The person that disappeared in the night of stars
The person that's floating in the sea of stars
She let the color in that distant sky remain imprinted so one day she can pull that hand
Her voice that's calling out in a bitter way, that same voice that girl's searching you with
Opened the night's door again, the one that making her remember you. ♪♫ 

Yo te aishiteru uwu♥ asdhakjsdhaksjdhaskd

hoshi ni negai wo~  sasagete mireba
daremo inai BURUU. ~  BURUU. ~ ~
kizutsuki kizutsuke, mou kutabireta.
kimi to boku ga shizumuuu ~ ~ ~ 'BURUU niiiiiiii.' ~ ♪ ♫ ♪ ♫ ~ ~ ~

Please tell me what do you do/listen/watch to cheer yourself up...? . . . . .

Oh! please TSUNAMI no JOHNNY, sayonara iwanaide. u.u ♫ ♪

I miss you, kimi wa inai. Hontou wa zutto, zutto wasurenai. Ima wa mada kimi ni oboeteitai. Ushinau imi wo shinitakunai kara♥. ♫ ♪ - the Raid. - star drop