CAT5

Haha, yeah, that was quite a wild ride. Also when it turned out that Kisaki was an abuser and pedo… thanks to MH I lost all the respect I had left for him, lol. 
 
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RIP Mh. Took me a while to write something…
 
I know I didn't post much at the end, because I took a break from the internet and especially social media. I don't know if people really recognize me, since I am here only sporadically, despite being signed since a long time. I admit, I like lurking more than actually talking to other people. I still took part in some discussions and being the weird introvert that I am, I usually regretted voicing my stupid opinions afterwards. In the end I didn't delete any posts though, because I feel that's part of forum culture, owning up to the bullshit you say, even if it's cringe and letting it stay on the internet. Some disputes and lovely banter here was funny though and it fills me with a strange fuzzy feeling to know that i have been part of some fandom drama. It's like being part of an old folk tale, you know? Now I wonder how much of the drama will be even remembered in 10 years…
 
Honestly, a year ago or so I believed MH would stay for much longer, since the forum managed to outlive most other de-centralized communities and websites. Seems I was wrong and it comes to an end sooner than I thought. I know there's a new community on discourse, but I have to admit, I don't like social media sites and centralized web hubs and places. I think discourse is a better alternative than having nothing, but MH's UI was miles better. MH also feels so much more personal… I cannot explain it. I just don't really feel the same thing when I go online on sites like reddit, facebook, etc. Everything's quite dull and surface level, particularly on FB.  VK fandom communities on other sites are also rather meh…
 
Anyway, before I start writing bullshit, I just want to thank all the people who kept the site alive for more than a decade. I discovered a lot of great bands and music here, some of the discussions were entertaining to read. Hope you are all doing fine, despite the train wreck of a year we had.

When it comes to social media, I don't post or share on a consistent basis, but if you'd like to stay in touch, these would be your best bet. Feel free to add/follow:
 
https://www.facebook.com/wesloggins/
https://twitter.com/ongakunek0

When it comes to social media, I don't post or share on a consistent basis, but if you'd like to stay in touch, these would be your best bet. Feel free to add/follow:
 
https://www.facebook.com/wesloggins/
https://twitter.com/ongakunek0

The MH plug.dj sessions deserve a shout out. I remember in the early days we'd get a lot of people in those. Fun times.

Ey my nigga. J yet because MH is closing, don’t think I ain’t forget about you giving me a warning because of “white supremacy”
 
@CAT5
 
I will always laugh at this. 
 
But Ive had the pleasure of talking to a lot of you guys over the years. Some of which I’ve reconnected with since Fukkatsu such as @WhirlingBlackand @EzraEroguro.  I remember talking to @Biopanda , Val, and some other folk in the Skype chat till the wee hours of the morning. I remember having the biggest crush on @allisapp for awhile. Meeting @Zeus’s soft spoken and cool ass last year will always be one of my highlights. I remember cracking up at @Jigsaw9’s puns.
 
Man so many memories to bring up...and I’m starting to tear up. 
 
Even the not so great times here I’ll cherish to en extent. @blackdoll you are a trip. But passionate. @nekkichi, even after the back and fourth me and you have had, I’ve come to warm up to your persona. @LestatI apologize for lashing out at you the way I did back in the day. You were cool to chat with on regular basis. And I hope you’re well. 
 
Rest of you, I enjoyed the convos and and music we’ve shared! I’ve become more privy to hella bands and stuck around this scene much longer than I intended to because of this place. I can’t wait to eventually chat with you guys more in our new home! 
 
Mods/admins:
Thanks for holding shit down! I’ve watched Batsu and Fukkatsu fold into itself due to lack of proper leadership. Things weren’t always perfect here either but y’all put your best foot forward when it was time to and shit got better. It’s sad that MH is ending but this is honestly the best way it could go out. A lot of that is due to you guys. Idk how many of y’all are transferring over but just in case some of y’all don’t, your services were greatly appreciated!
 
 

M-H will disband at 2021/01/01 due to losing confidence of visual kei since the same date, and their alter-ego band "JROCK ONE" will commence activities

they will still search for visual-kei news in the future but will not post anywhere in the near future

PS1: M-H people are talented enough to find news, and thus visual kei no longer needs them anymore
PS2: that mod, psychonnect_rozen, and vk stan twitter/reddit/facebook groups should be happy for this news
PS3: hope that this thread will not be deleted or edited by that mod, who is not willing to delete other threads upon his request

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Sorry I wrote a fucking novel ;V
 

LMAOOO, is it seriously taking COVID for ppl to realize that, *deep breath*, men and women actually need each other!!??!!?? 😂
 

https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/23/opinion/coronavirus-women-feminism.html
 
I'm actually surprised that the NYTIMES posted something like this tbh.
 
Every one of us is here because of a man and a woman, yet it's amazing to me that we, as humans, think we can circumvent simple, fundamental truths and still expect to prosper and progress in any meaningful way.

I've been here for 10 years, at first just a bit of lurking here and there and when the chat feature came I've always been there each single day to have a chat with everyone and to cheer people up as I've been known as the positive fairy who cheers everyone up

 
I've got to know quite some people here who I'm still in touch with^^ (after I came back after 5 years).
 
I think the most memorable thing was:
That thing with Akane (Para:noir/D.I.D) where everyone went nuts for some specific comment about religions or something. I remember @Karma’s Hat used to had it in the signature >,<
 
My duties which I did for the staff team back in the days. Also the end of the year staff music reviews was really nice organized and fun to do 
 
Honestly I've always been quite a introvert person but thanks to you all I've become a more open person both online and irl  
 
I hope to stay in touch with everyone!
I do have a few people of MH on my social media accounts, feel free to follow and message me so we can stay in touch!
IG: Linh_desu
TWT: @Linhdesu

Goodbye MH, you'll be never forgotten!
ありがとう!

I would just like to say "Azaeroe" and leave it at that for a laugh, but there's more I wanna say.
 
I was here for just over two years and they were a wonderful two years. Until my WiFi mishaps, I actually managed to log in every single day! Usually when I join a new site I get bored of it quickly but not here. I spoke to some awesome people (and some not so awesome, but they made me laugh), learnt a lot and got many new interests. I'm on my phone outside a closed shop that fsr still has its WiFi going and my hands are cold so I'll keep this short and sweet but it really was an amazing experience being here. Thank you all! ❤️

Certified iconic MH moments:
- the entire "k*w*** m*np** and the near death of the download section"-saga
- the entire ebmort saga
- the nigh-on entire community joining hands to dunk on yoshiki whenever he does some new stupid shit
- communally dunking on kisaki whenever he's acting up again
- Dispo's Mcdonaldsposting
- "I SWEAR I'M QUITTING THIS SITE FOR REAL THIS TIME" "nvm i'm back" 
- scandal heaven
- visual kei animorphs edits
- that brief period when the mh premium account joke was funny
- "it's out x"
- the pokemonposter / yohimbe defender saga
 
If you weren't here to witness at least 4 of these you have not been into VK long enough. please remember this.
 
Certified uniconic MH moments:
- that period when MH simultaneously turned into both Jordan Peterson Heaven & Redditwitter at once

FUCK IT, DOUBLE POST.
 
Figured since I'm stuck with my old PC now I might as well do a deep dive in hopes of coming up with some funny images from days of yore. Unfortunately it didn't yield a haul as big as I anticipated...but anyway, here are some things I dug up that I found funny (or that were funny at one point in time).
 
While MH closing got us like...
 

 
...let us think of the good times. Remember when Akane from D.I.D. expressed his religious views, even tho nobody asked?
 

 
But he wasn't the only one to be brilliant on social media. THE HAKKIN were pretty lowkey but they managed this whopper once:
 

 
Remember the MOO album from DEG? Or DOGEMA from the GazettE? Or...
 

(ok I know I'm the only one who still finds doge funny in 2020 idc)
 
Anyway, when it comes down to it, love is the answer. Let that special someone in your life know your true feelings.
 

 

 
...or you can just get to the point.
 

 
Sadly I don't have many screenshots from MH itself, but for some reason I kept this gem by @Tokage:
 

 
Closing off, let's remember that through all the good, bad or strange times it has always just been about the music, maaan. We're just a bunch of people going crazy over some (mostly) random underground fan-exploiting-or-worse weirdos who probably don't even know or suspect we even exist. Opinions are opinions, no need make a big fuss over them, but... I think we can agree that visual kei at its peak has made us all feel a bit of what @Shaolan974 once formulated that has stuck with me to this day:
 

 
Adios once again, MH.

- April Fool's News Threads
 
- Reading people's reactions when BABOO crashed into the scene with some bonafide baby-diaper-ageplay-kei goodness which they've now removed from youtube (crying), but you can remind yourself by checking out 3:05 here
 
- A certain Italian Lady sharing her ghost stories and j-rocker related dreams
 
- The never-ending search for Maria Cross' movies and kisaki nudes
 
 
I haven't met as many people as some of the European folks, one time @WhirlingBlack and I *almost* went for drinks, I hope I can go to your club some day. I had the pleasure of hanging out with @monkeybanana4 at a couple of concerts and watching a hilarious shitty movie with @ghost  
 
I've made some really good memories here and hope to continue having laughs with some of you. I can't wait for teenage intellectuals and spiritual gurus to keep targeting whichever platforms we move onto 🙏
 

 
 
 

One of my brothers recently went through the same situation (but with 5 kids involved) so I can definitely understand the gravity of this situation. I know that there's no way to describe the level of pain, frustration, and confusion that you're experiencing right now.
 
DM me and let's talk about it.
 
My heart goes out to you and your family, brother.

One of my brothers recently went through the same situation (but with 5 kids involved) so I can definitely understand the gravity of this situation. I know that there's no way to describe the level of pain, frustration, and confusion that you're experiencing right now.
 
DM me and let's talk about it.
 
My heart goes out to you and your family, brother.

Never spoke of my personal life here before but with forum ending plus my sheer desperation right now I thought I'd give it a shot.
 
My relationship of 7 years with 2 kids came to an end about 4 months ago. I won't go into the details of how. It was not mutual. I have already spoken to her told her many times and even begged her unfortunately. She's made it clear we aren't getting back together. We aren't exactly friends or even friendly but I am forced to communicate for the kids. Also I'm pretty sure she's already with someone else and lying about it. Even if not she certainly will eventually and I don't know how I'll be able to cope with that because I'm barely making it now. The idea that someone else will get to see and live with my kids more than me makes me sick. I don't even see the point in living 

It's a been a long ride. I've been on here for 11 years, close to 12. Everything has to come to an end and I honestly can't say where I would be without this place. Without any hesitation I can say that Monochrome Heaven, or Tainted World as it was when I first joined, changed my life. I'm genuinely curious how that makes people like Zess and Ito feel that they've had such a significant impact on a person's life just by making this place and running for all these years. The current trajectory on which my life is on was set by all the friendships I've made in this place over the years, and through everything I went through this place was a constant companion. Zess, Bear/Sumostig, Junna, Shizu, Whirlingblack especially have been significant to me and I'm grateful. Who knows how deep I'd be in normiedom without these people influencing my taste in the way they did. If it wasn't Christmas with the family I wasn't as tipsy as I was, I'd probably have a whole lot more to say about this than I do now. Me and Whirlingblack started really hanging out proper in the beginning of 2017 when I decided to just bail Finland. I stayed at his place for some time and I don't remember what we did together, but what I do know for sure is that it was the kind of debauchery what we would we doing together and independently to this day. Shizu is another person that by his existence has assured me I'm first of all not entirely alone in world with my tastes and interests. 
 
But it wasn't just the few people that one stuck around with all these years that made the place, but also all the characters that've come and gone over the years. There is so much stuff to dig out of the annals of monochrome heaven and tainted world that in my case it'd be a book. 
 
What the new people on here don't know, is that this place had a tremendously active chat back in the days that was integrated into the website. Almost every was there at one point, and during its heydays absolutely nothing was going on my life, so I was there almost every minute or every single day.  In my country you have to take dancing lessons for the prom for like six months, and in 2012 when I went through that thing most of that time I'd be giving live status updates throughout the whole experience. Before and after I'd be sitting in Mcdonald's drinking coffee and it became a running joke that I was always online, always people watching in Mcdonald's. Probably some of my best memories from the board are from the chat years. Shoutout to everyone who was there to experience it
 
So much stuff has happened on this board that new people have no idea, because so much has been lost to chat logs, private messages and purges over the years. The forum as it stands rn is only a tiny fraction of all that had taken place. 
 
I'm too drunk right now to remember any of this stuff, but it means so much to me and I'll cherish all of these memories forever. Here is some of people I've met irl over the years from here in a random order 
 
wb, marcus, jigsaw, shizu, saltofstones, allisapp, panda, pretsy, hyura, slsr, stylelover, 237q, gaz, tokage and many, many others I've met for a minute or two during gigs. 
 
I proofread none of this
 
Those who don't have me anywhere can follow me either on here https://twitter.com/SoderlundAleksi or just add me on fb Aleksi Söderlund
 
Everyone who I've shared this place with. 
 
I love you all. Good bye and thanks for the memories, all those i've laughed or fought with. 

Yesterday, some random chick told me, "you don't look like how you sound....you sound so humble and gentle, but you look like a monsta!"...Not sure if that was a compliment or not, but I suppose being a tall, dark-skinned dude with a beard and dreadlocks makes me look intimidating 😂
 
 

Yesterday, some random chick told me, "you don't look like how you sound....you sound so humble and gentle, but you look like a monsta!"...Not sure if that was a compliment or not, but I suppose being a tall, dark-skinned dude with a beard and dreadlocks makes me look intimidating 😂
 
 

Porn is bad enough as is, but if you're watching it and you're in a relationship with someone, then something is VERY wrong. I'll never understand ppl that do that.

Album art with the artist's face on it. There are some like this that are very well done (like "Ikuru Sainou" by THE BACK HORN), but usually I find these to be very cheesy for some reason.

A decade ended, and a new one began this year. I don't think we've had this convo yet, so what are yall favorite J-rock albums from the decade of 2010 to 2020?
 
You can list your favorites, and you can also list albums that you simply think stand out or are at least worth a listen for J-rock fans in general.
 
I need to think on this, so i'll come back and share my favs/best later.
 
 

I did a music thing. 
 
 

Seeing how careless people are in their relationships and just how careless and selfish ppl are encouraged by this culture to be....it's pretty disheartening. Ppl wanna have these ideal relationships, but they don't wanna put in the work. They'll cash in somebody for another, as soon as that person doesn't fulfill them in some way. Somebody said recently, "if you ain't willing to struggle with somebody, then you ain't never gonna have it", and that was some real-ass shit. Too many ppl are expecting perfection from others, but are unwilling to cope with the fact that they themselves are imperfect. The best thing I think you can ask for relationship-wise is simply somebody you can work with...somebody you can build with. Cuz contrary to what ppl want to believe, everybody on earth is fucked up in some way. Social media will have folks believing that there are ppl walking around here that are 100% perfect and "healed", which is the buzzword they like to use. Nah, errbody fucked up and struggling with something or some "things". Thus is life. But it's that very expectation of perfection that stifles true love. Folks will tell you they love you all day, but when shit gets rough...when shit gets difficult - that's the time to put that love into action. If you ain't never had to practice patience, understanding, or forgiveness with someone, how can you claim to love them?
 
That disney shit got ppl fucked up....love ain't an emotion. It's an action. It's a function. If your "love" is based on emotion, then you don't have a house built on a sturdy foundation, you have a sand castle that's gonna be blown away by the very next wind. Building something strong and beautiful, like the Cedars of Lebanon, takes time and patience...you gotta grow roots first.

Seeing how careless people are in their relationships and just how careless and selfish ppl are encouraged by this culture to be....it's pretty disheartening. Ppl wanna have these ideal relationships, but they don't wanna put in the work. They'll cash in somebody for another, as soon as that person doesn't fulfill them in some way. Somebody said recently, "if you ain't willing to struggle with somebody, then you ain't never gonna have it", and that was some real-ass shit. Too many ppl are expecting perfection from others, but are unwilling to cope with the fact that they themselves are imperfect. The best thing I think you can ask for relationship-wise is simply somebody you can work with...somebody you can build with. Cuz contrary to what ppl want to believe, everybody on earth is fucked up in some way. Social media will have folks believing that there are ppl walking around here that are 100% perfect and "healed", which is the buzzword they like to use. Nah, errbody fucked up and struggling with something or some "things". Thus is life. But it's that very expectation of perfection that stifles true love. Folks will tell you they love you all day, but when shit gets rough...when shit gets difficult - that's the time to put that love into action. If you ain't never had to practice patience, understanding, or forgiveness with someone, how can you claim to love them?
 
That disney shit got ppl fucked up....love ain't an emotion. It's an action. It's a function. If your "love" is based on emotion, then you don't have a house built on a sturdy foundation, you have a sand castle that's gonna be blown away by the very next wind. Building something strong and beautiful, like the Cedars of Lebanon, takes time and patience...you gotta grow roots first.

Seeing how careless people are in their relationships and just how careless and selfish ppl are encouraged by this culture to be....it's pretty disheartening. Ppl wanna have these ideal relationships, but they don't wanna put in the work. They'll cash in somebody for another, as soon as that person doesn't fulfill them in some way. Somebody said recently, "if you ain't willing to struggle with somebody, then you ain't never gonna have it", and that was some real-ass shit. Too many ppl are expecting perfection from others, but are unwilling to cope with the fact that they themselves are imperfect. The best thing I think you can ask for relationship-wise is simply somebody you can work with...somebody you can build with. Cuz contrary to what ppl want to believe, everybody on earth is fucked up in some way. Social media will have folks believing that there are ppl walking around here that are 100% perfect and "healed", which is the buzzword they like to use. Nah, errbody fucked up and struggling with something or some "things". Thus is life. But it's that very expectation of perfection that stifles true love. Folks will tell you they love you all day, but when shit gets rough...when shit gets difficult - that's the time to put that love into action. If you ain't never had to practice patience, understanding, or forgiveness with someone, how can you claim to love them?
 
That disney shit got ppl fucked up....love ain't an emotion. It's an action. It's a function. If your "love" is based on emotion, then you don't have a house built on a sturdy foundation, you have a sand castle that's gonna be blown away by the very next wind. Building something strong and beautiful, like the Cedars of Lebanon, takes time and patience...you gotta grow roots first.