Mamo

Never spoke of my personal life here before but with forum ending plus my sheer desperation right now I thought I'd give it a shot.
 
My relationship of 7 years with 2 kids came to an end about 4 months ago. I won't go into the details of how. It was not mutual. I have already spoken to her told her many times and even begged her unfortunately. She's made it clear we aren't getting back together. We aren't exactly friends or even friendly but I am forced to communicate for the kids. Also I'm pretty sure she's already with someone else and lying about it. Even if not she certainly will eventually and I don't know how I'll be able to cope with that because I'm barely making it now. The idea that someone else will get to see and live with my kids more than me makes me sick. I don't even see the point in living 

hey mate, I'm sorry for the situation you're in, it's never easy to go through that kind of change, but I think you already have all the pieces of the puzzle in your hands. She already made it clear and you said yourself you guys arent even friendly to each other, looks like the love relationship is gone, there's only a lingering idea that she is somehow your possession, which is obviously not true. Not only that, but I could bet that if you take your time/distance to look over your relationship, you'd see that the sheer number of issues between you guys would most certainly shows that it would meet the same end if somehow you guys tried again. For that, I could only suggest looking for professional help. And I mean it, find yourself a trusted mental health professional, get some help. You own it to yourself, and more than that, to the 2 kids that certainly love and need their father. If anything, I'd say that should be your main concern atm: focus on getting better to do better to your kids. Be the best, more present, more caring dad you can be, that is always only up to you. Wishing you all the best, and all the strength to deal with this!

One of my brothers recently went through the same situation (but with 5 kids involved) so I can definitely understand the gravity of this situation. I know that there's no way to describe the level of pain, frustration, and confusion that you're experiencing right now.
 
DM me and let's talk about it.
 
My heart goes out to you and your family, brother.

Never spoke of my personal life here before but with forum ending plus my sheer desperation right now I thought I'd give it a shot.
 
My relationship of 7 years with 2 kids came to an end about 4 months ago. I won't go into the details of how. It was not mutual. I have already spoken to her told her many times and even begged her unfortunately. She's made it clear we aren't getting back together. We aren't exactly friends or even friendly but I am forced to communicate for the kids. Also I'm pretty sure she's already with someone else and lying about it. Even if not she certainly will eventually and I don't know how I'll be able to cope with that because I'm barely making it now. The idea that someone else will get to see and live with my kids more than me makes me sick. I don't even see the point in living 

ain't afraid to die

Dexcore - Metempsychosis
Xaa Xaa - Ai
Mary’s Blood - Re>Animator

DEXCORE - [METEMPSYCHOSIS.] -Red- might be the best vk release ever just do to the amount of new songs. OMFG!

Not one, not two, but THREE new demotapes dropping sometime very soon apparently ( one of which is Valentina.... nice )
 

Just uploaded
Link

I forgot they existed.

VK:
1. Luna Sea
2. Devil Kitty
3. Plastic Tree
4. hide
5. Dir en Grey
 
Western artists:
1. Prince
2. Mr. Bungle
3. OutKast
4. Jack Off Jill
5. Smashing Pumpkins

-DIR EN GREY
-DIMLIM
-NAZARE
-sukekiyo
-MEJIBRAY

As long as M-H is still alive I'll post a thread! My friend postd this on Facebook but I didn't comment because they wouldn't know any of the bands I like lol. (trust me I've tried to show them. ) So I thought this would be a fun little topic here.
 
This is gonna be kinda hard definitely need 5.
 
1.) SWARRRM 
2.) DIR EN GREY
3.) An Autumn For Crippled Children 
4.) Maximum the Hormone 
5.) ギルガメッシュ

Just the Japanese bands
 
Versailles (For the aesthetic rich themes)
Calmando Qual (For the random experimental stuff)
Anthem (For the English and Japanese songwriting and fun tunes)
Destrose (For the Female-led metal bands)
LuLu (For the inconsistent song quality of VK bands)
 
 

This is sooo ~randum~, but hey. I really wanna see people's replies to this
If you had to describe one (or more) of your favorite vk band(s) with one piece of media, be it a paragraph, a lyric, a picture, a song, an mv, an interview, whatever - how would you describe it? That one thing you saw and went "oh, ok, this is quintessentially ___".
 
This idea actually crossed my mind when I felt this watching Nazuki by Nightmare - a PV not many would consider their favorite but I really liked back then and completely forgot why, until I went back to it years later and realized the mess it is lol.
 
 
From there I realized that I only like messy bands most bands would have something like that you consider to be a "classical (this band)" thing, so... please introduce me to your favorite band(s) with one piece of media alone! No need to explain it, just go!  (The weirder, the better.)

My favorite Girugamesh song 
 

5 is just not enough but here goes
 
The Piass
Dio - Distraught Overlord
D.I.D
キズ
Grieva

MALICE MIZER
Plastic Tree
cali≠gari
Guniw Tools
 
The last spot is tricky but I'm gonna give it to an old favourite...
 
LAREINE

√eight
∀NTI FEMINISM
MERRY
KYOKUTOU GIRL FRIEND
Kagerou

1: Yukiko Okada
2: KAMIJO
3: Malice Mizer
4: Hiromi Iwasaki
5: UnsraW

it varies, but that would be my palate of the right now:
 
5 luna sea Verxina
4 femme fatale
3 ラヴェーゼ
2 𝕯𝖚𝖊𝖑𝕵𝖊𝖜𝖊𝖑
1 adderall j... underfall justice

As long as M-H is still alive I'll post a thread! My friend postd this on Facebook but I didn't comment because they wouldn't know any of the bands I like lol. (trust me I've tried to show them. ) So I thought this would be a fun little topic here.
 
This is gonna be kinda hard definitely need 5.
 
1.) SWARRRM 
2.) DIR EN GREY
3.) An Autumn For Crippled Children 
4.) Maximum the Hormone 
5.) ギルガメッシュ

As long as M-H is still alive I'll post a thread! My friend postd this on Facebook but I didn't comment because they wouldn't know any of the bands I like lol. (trust me I've tried to show them. ) So I thought this would be a fun little topic here.
 
This is gonna be kinda hard definitely need 5.
 
1.) SWARRRM 
2.) DIR EN GREY
3.) An Autumn For Crippled Children 
4.) Maximum the Hormone 
5.) ギルガメッシュ