Koumori

I have been in a relationship for almost nine years, which ended on my birthday on January 8th, when my former boyfriend suddenly left me while I was having dinner at a Chinese restaurant with my family. We lived in the same apartment and he took most of his stuff, such as our dog, without asking me if he could take her with him in the first place. He simply apologized for leaving, telling me he wasn't good enough for me. At first I thought he might have some mental health issues, why I wanted to help him, but later I found out that he had actually cheated on me with another woman since a few months already and was living at her place now. He also never got the rest of his stuff and I never got an explanation or an apology. 
 
I was always happy with him and thought of him as my soulmate, since we always got along very well and I enjoyed spending time with him. He had also been the only person I was really able to trust and I just knew he understood me. Besides that he often told me that he loved me and I helped him a lot during the years with his jobs, money, education and everything he needed. 
 
He really isn't the man he used to be anymore. I know that people change, but he changed in a pretty negative way. When I met him nine years ago, it was important to him to be loyal to your partner, he never wanted kids, he disliked the smell of cigarettes and he despised women who would show off their naked body to everyone else. But now he is with a woman who has a child from another man, who's a smoker and sells nudes online. There are just so many things I don't understand, since I have always been a loyal partner to him and I did anything to make him happy. And now, whenever he opens his mouth, I hear nothing but lies. He lied to me and he is lying to his new girlfriend, but she of course wouldn't believe me. Also she is a stalker, who acts as if she liked the exact same things as I do and tries to copy me. I blocked her everywhere and I broke off the contact to my former boyfriend too. But I am sorry for my dog and I truly miss her, even though I am sure he takes care of her. 

At the moment it is hard for me to trust people. I really can't think of having another relationship – at least not in a while. It would be unfair to someone who is actually honest and loyal, but I would always mistrust them, asking myself if they're cheating and so on. But nobody deserves that. 

Sorry for the long text and thank you for reading. I could have said so many more about the whole topic, but for now I think it is enough to understand what I mean.

Some pictures from yesterday. x3
 
 

 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

Welcome back to the forum and VK!

First time showing myself
I'm not a huge Iron Maiden fan but I like this shirt

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

It's been a long time since I've come back to this forum! It's nice to see that it is still alive and well : ). Life got in the way, and I stopped listening to VK for awhile, but some of my favorite bands were Fest Vainqueur, SCREW, D=OUT, Diaura, Vistlip, DaizyStripper, and a few others I cannot recall the names at the moment. Funny thing, I've slowly come back to listening to VK again. Thank you for being around still to connect with others who are still into VK : D

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

My look for our local Dark Valentines Ball / Goth Thing last Saturday. 
 

I don't have any pets atm but during the past 8 years I had several generations of rats living with me.
Sadly I don't have enough space for a big cage to get some again in my new apartment and I horribly miss having rats so much ...
 


 

Nice to meet you -
 
Frequent lurker, finally made an account (it's been years).
 
I'm Apesanteur, named after the song 'En Apesanteur' by French artist Calogero.
 
My favorite artists include KAMIJO, Malice Mizer, Versailles, Lareine, X Japan, Matenrou Opera...
 
I was big on collecting Malice Mizer and later Lareine & Versailles in middle and high school. I largely stopped looking for older/less common items throughout college and beyond, then recently started up again after traveling to Paris for the Sang Europe Tour last year. Made a brief trip to Japan this January and excited to be going back in a few weeks.
 
I play the viola and recently started learning guitar and piano. Played drums for a bit in high school (badly) and hoping to take it up again when I have time/space. Would love to learn how to play some of my favorite songs, so if you know any good resources for finding band scores/tabs either in-store or online please let me know!
 
I am a huge reader of epic fantasy, favorite authors include Brandon Sanderson, Patrick Rothfuss, Joe Abercrombie, Neil Gaiman... I am very picky about my books. 
 
Apart from VK, I enjoy Duran Duran, David Bowie, and Muse. From an orchestral/classical standpoint I always enjoy a good waltz.
 
Look forward to getting along with you all!
 

woke up like this, hi.
 
 

Welcome to the forums!
 
I hope you have a good time. 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

Some pics from Saturday. 
 

 

 
 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

I got a new family member on Sunday. Meet Kuma the Shiba Inu!
 

 

 

 

Some pics from Saturday.