Manji 卍

I feel you, if you're in a bad place it can be counterproductive to surround yourself with exclusively "negative" messages. I'm naturally drawn to it too, at least you're self aware! I've made efforts to branch out into other shit sometimes, it helps me tbh.

yea,it feels weird when you realize that your essence is dark,like despising the positivity and the enjoyment of people's company. this is not a good way to live.

I like Mio's voice and I wish I could get into them but I'm not a fan of the compositions. They have potential, but they need to boot Issei. They seem like they all get along, though, so idk when that's happening. 

@Duwang yea,for a debut,Mio did a really good job, there's a catchy chorus in almost every track and his gutturals are pretty decent,but the composition...so many dissonances,the piano and synths stepping on each other,Mio's exaggerated falsettos. They need to chill out

@Komorebi now it's out 

https://m.vk.com/wall-35600031_109301

You guys are right,I really appreciated your thoughts on it.

I'm used to get "strength" from all these things I've collected and spent my time with since years. 

And recently I've been expecting to get the same strength (the reason I'm so into MH)  but it didn't work. Im always feeling Unfulfilled. Since I started my adult life,I'm feeling incredible oppressed,cuz I've screwed everything up and I'm not the young-adult I thought I'd be.

hey i hope you'll get better soon〜 mistakes are okay, feeling like shit is okay, it's all temporary. some time ago  you found out that geek stuff gives you strength, maybe later you'll find other things. it seems you have a rough time now but you know, if you failed something it doesn't mean everything is over. keep going in the direction you want. or take a break if you feel tired and don't know what to do yet. whatever is fine.

Didn't read everything, so maybe someone wrote it already:
It's one of your personality traits, just like technology Nerds are spending a fckn huge time with PC / Coding / Programing or stuff like this and spend most of there money on it or Music / Art anything. 
So see it as part of you, what makes you out/a bit of your person. 
You may got lost in a wrong though that's you now saw it like this? Cause I guess that's happens everyone with stuff like this by an time - but in the end the only thing which matters is that's it still makes you happy / you love it or things like this.

waiting for your story.

exploiting such issues are too inappropriate for a forum like this.
it involves alcoholism,self harm,social phobia,death of relatives,suicide,etc.

i don't wanna look like someone trying to get attention,like: "why is this guy saying such stuff"

i know,when you writte sad things on internet,somehow you want to be noticed, 

and at the same time take a load off your shoulders.even annonymous,it is embarrassing.

i'll try to be as coherend as possible with the forum's policy while i speak out my mind,

cuz making texts is better than hurt myself sporadically. 

i wouldn't come up with any story of mine,now i just thought about some serious thread,basically like the random thoughts thread,but only for "depressive" stuff.

(sorry for the big text)

Nobody will treat you as an attentionwhore, I suppose. So, feel free to share your thoughts and create a thread. MH is pretty friendly board, after all.

Some here https://archive.org/search.php?query=suehiro maruo&sin=TXT
 

More here: http://www.mangago.me/r/l_search/?name=suehiro+maruo

can't find a direct download batch tho

There's a Russian message board metalarea.org - it's pretty easy to register to, and is constantly updated with new releases (and most of the older releases' dead links get replaced frequently too). This is for the black metal part of your question obviously.  For post-punk I don't know of any other 'one' source except the Stench of Death blog.

Haven't used metalarea.org in a long time, but it used to be excellent. If you wanted a demo from1987 that was released in 7 copies, that was the place to find it.

If you don't mind torrents, then metal-tracker.com is really good. Not only black metal, but it's very good for black metal as well as most other metal sub genres. As people who upload have to add their own genre the genre tags might come as cross as a bit messy, but it works. This, metalarea and a few dead black metal blogspots used to be my go-to's for years until I more or less stopped downloading music a few years ago.

thank you,guys...! there's so much good underground stuff on internet

i've been craving more and more

I am going to download ape escape for the PS4 (*_*)

And gaming that for the evening.

But no alcohol.

Got hungover yesterday... Body somehow didn't accept the WINE o(=o=)o

relatable queen x

She is a ghost??

Ugh, been there.

without a gf I'd only have a bottle of vodka and wifi and i'd be all the more happier for it 🎄

You're lucky. I'd trade my alcohol and WiFi for a good gf now. I can't never make a rship last till this period of the year (" .___.)

Yes, someone tell Netflix that. Because as we all know it's Netflix who're deciding upon this, not the actual creators of the series. You know, people like Eugene Son who's the writer and Yoshiharu Ashino who's directing.

there's a problem we've been facing nowadays,and it is the fact that a great part of the people who work in the media,authors, producers,journalists and etc are simply becoming activists.

Furthermore,I don't believe they'd do this shit without the permission of the owners. Look at what they did with the live action of Death Note, taking a black guy to act as L knowing that it has absolutely nothing to do with L's characteristics,and now they change Shun's sexual gender based on feminist shit. Fuck these activists

Again, Netflix had NOTHING to do with the actual content of Death Note. They purchase the rights to movies and produce them (aka, give money for the creators to use), but they do not decide on the content within the movies and series. Changing the skin color of the characters, their sex, the plot or whatever is all up to the actual creators of the shows and movies, not Netflix. Netflix do not mess around with the creative process of the creation of films and series. It's all up to the creators involved. This also why Netflix is getting bigger and bigger in a ridiculously high tempo, and are able to attract so many big names, as well as new, unknown people.

If you're an indie film maker and manage to get the attention of Netflix, you'll be able to fulfill your vision of a film as you get more money than you ever could dream of as an indie film maker, and you'll get a creative freedom that you won't get anywhere else.

Same goes for big name directors. Where they for the major studios will have to think about the income and what the film can earn, at Netflix they can make the film NC-17 if they feel like, and Netflix won't mind. Because it's not up to them, as they don't get involved in the creative process of the film.

I wrote some posts about this in the Cowboy Bebop live action thread if you're interested in knowing more.

tl;dr: Netflix just doesn't get involved when it comes to creativity. It's that simple.

Aka, for me, is like... what if Die would wrote Rinkaku?

Can't say cuz i don't know the tracks each one composes lol

Rinkaku was composed by Kaoru and Aka - by Die

Oh... that's odd.i never thought about it before,I mean,I was sure that Deviloof would stay Deviloof. Well, perhaps it won't even change that much. The song baby don't cry is veery Deviloof and correct if I'm wrong but I think Seiya wasn't even present when they recorded that ,so...idk. the X factor is their new guitarist that looks like MiA and Bou at the same time

Well, Baby Don't Cry wasn't a Deviloof song too, but I understand your line of reasoning there. I guess we just have to wait and see how things turn out. I wish Hiroto didn't just disappear, though. Seiya is at least doing YouTube covers and such, while wearing Deviloof merch. But Hiroto just deleted everything from his twitter and has been super quiet (online) since.

yea,perhaps hiroto is going through some personal thing...

i'll be completely okay if Seiya just follow Ryuya's steps and join some serious band

and do what he likes to do,so we all would get one more great band in the game

God works in mysterious ways, after all. 

@platy  usually I don't pay attention to someone else's beliefs unless it intrigues me. and what happened was just unthinkable. Where was supposed to be a "safe" place was their graves. But of course,God is not the one to blame.

"I don't want to start 
Any blasphemous rumors
But I think that God's 
Got a sick sense of humor 
And when I die
I expect to find Him laughing"

Swedish metal made me have faith in rock music again. 🤘🤘🤘

That's it. thick and agressive music

Their albums are slaying me hard

stream 「Reality」 by the independent voluptuous chanteuse Courtney Stodden to enter an upgraded realm hun x

@nekkichi I hope you die this Christmas

luv u 2, girlie!! @Manji 卍

Mee too ! I can't find it anywhere in months !