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I used to listen to them back in the day (like... 13-14 years ago, lol). "Sweetest Disease" was among the first few VK music videos I ever saw!

Same Blood was one of my early favorites too.

used to be fairly into them - found them very hit or miss, but "Morphine" is still a top tier VK track. the overall mood and atmosphere of that song is really fantastic.

Perhaps, but it's important to make to other person believe, when they need to. And even if you don't believe in the words you say, the other one might.

@123Sandman321 yeah,that's what i thought.making someone important feel better is what matters,even if it's against your own "beliefs" 

i know what you're talking about, my first ex commited suicide a year ago. of course it's not as bad as losing your relatives, i can't even imaging how horrifying it must be. but being half dead - well, i know that feeling. life is a fucking joke huh. i don't even think focusing on new things is a good solution - suppressing your inner thoughts doesn't solve the problem. idk what will work for you, but i've read some books and they helped me accept different things. i still don't think life is a piece of cake or something meaningful but now i'm like okay whatever, let's have some nice moments at least before i end up in grave

@yomii your thoughts makes sense again,and sorry about your ex. I really need this "whatever" button in my life. But we need something meaningful to hang on while "enjoying" these moments, don't you agree? like a well succeeded career,family and a true love. My cat and my geek stuff won't give me the "structure" I need to stay strong living in this shit world

you know such things as successful career, family and true love are not so common, even among people who don't struggle with depression...but i think the point is in trying to achieve such things anyway. maybe you will achieve an ideal, maybe you won't, but step by step you will make your life much more comfortable. you've said you have some things to finish, and you want to find a better job, so it means you do have some goals in life, so, can't these goals themselves become your "structure" instead of geek stuff? if you find a better job that will be your first step to a good career. and maybe you'll meet the love of your life there~ maybe not, who knows. but anyway it will be more comfortable to work in a place that doesn't disguist you.
tell me about your cat btw .w.

i can't wait for the super saiyan god version of mamireta x

Yes, that's a shit example,but I think you guys get what I mean lol

spending money on different stuff  XD

not okay

he'll respawn in 3 days. no worries.

lol that's another way to see it

Then just don't drink...

Be too busy, too tired to drink...

@BrenGun haha I wish it was that easy,but unfortunately there's a lot of stuff going on

oh wait yeah then you better stop.  in that case if i had to choose i'd better try to quit drinking than smoking tbh, drinking without smoking is a waste anyway. 

being busy with smth you're really interested in really helps btw, like, i won't drink if i know i have to do my homework, but im lucky i realised i love studying before it was too late. finding something you can really dedicate yourself to is not easy, especially when you are not feeling okay. just being super busy doesn't work - we all know how nice it is to reward yourself with some beer after an awful day.

you know i've never self-harmed, but i feel you in some way, coping with pain can be really difficult. i've heard therapists can help but if things were so easy you wouldn't bring up such themes in the first place huh?

Haven't watched it yet, but I've been reading up on the scene and am curious how the movie depicts it.

But it made even Varg say positive stuff about Euronymous, that he died fighting, so I don't expect too much. Oh well, let's find out!

They have a One Piece live action in the making, that should be fun! They've already stated it'll be americanised. 

The more time passes the more I appreciate the movie for what it is. It’s not good cinema by any means and does get mired in genre nonsense like Euro’s romance and all that, but making Mayhem into Spinal Tap was exactly what the culture deserves at this point, which is nothing but ridicule. Meanwhile the wolves of the underground live in a realm separate from this one, selling bootlegs nsbm split’s on discog’s for hundreds of euros.

having a morphine habit does exactly what you're looking for!

Sorry,guys,I didn't even see the comments on this,thank you so much for the support.only 2 weeks on this journey of abstinence and the results has been great so far. With some difficulties of course,but totally worth it

Proud of you, and glad to hear it's going well! I'm here to talk if you ever need to

Hey, no problem  Happy to hear that you’re doing well! Keep it up!

yes, it does.

There is nothing to carry in Korea. But Madmans Esprit deserve more love.

I just started to spread it with my current avatar!!! They rock and are the only Korean act I really listen to (excluding BoA pre-2010)

Didn't expect they'd release a new EP so fast

You mean like the point when the human being turns into a lifeless piece of meat? I think there's a certain part of death that is naturally incomprehensible to us...

@VESSMIER Exactly. Makes me remember that I'm nothing.

I'll be always grateful to vk artists for allowing me to discover the post punk scene while introducing some of their most memorable artists and works.

I have the same opinion of yours, and also feel the same way respect the vk scene nowadays. Original VK (even when it wasn't called that way) imported the same "ethos" of post punk; thus the classics acts still sound fresh and genuine despite having 20 or 30+ years old, and in the other hand, newer acts can only become more and more industrialized, to the point of looking ridiculous when looking for the attention of kogal and young girls obssesed with anime and game characters. So VK as a canal of true artistic expression, with its charge of social inconformism, like post punk was, is pretty much dead.

I used to not be, until I considered a possibility we might instead of being in oblivion, come back endlessly and be forced to live again and again.

I mean even if it's not technically us and we're not really aware...but coming back to live as a human ever again who may be in even shittier conditions, or be ignorant, uncreative, cruel or unquestioning of how fucked society is, is way scarier than death.
I'm not religious, but I can't not think of it that way as a transfer of energy or something. And what if all the people who've claimed to regressed to their past life in deep meditation aren't just in elaborate hallucination, no thanks. Oblivion for me.

@colorfuljinsei I really hate any kind of religion,but it's tough for me to be "totally" atheist,cuz I already saw a girl possessed right before my eyes. So, unfortunately the "beyond" isn't necessary a fantasy. If I had absolute sure that hell or things like that doesn't even exist, I'd be certainly dead by now,but this kind of thought keeps holding me back

i do not value life too much and i also believe that there is a certain flow of energy so a "soul" or whatever you call it won't vanish completely. but as a biological organism i'm afraid af and it's only natural. would be fun to overcome instincts but i can't.