Azaeroe

Listening to the One Piece soundtrack, fyi. "Kokoro no Chizu".

R.I.P your account 

Remember @Azaeroe, I warned you. And @suji warned you seven minutes earlier. How does this feel? Do you like this feeling of loneliness and rejection? Do you like being isolated? Being a loner is okay, but it doesn't seem like that life is for you. You want to "ruin your life" and "go to jail", so this anonymous online embarrassment should be nothing. But I suspect that your new shadow banned status will be agony for someone who desperately seeks companionship, even if they do not want to admit it.

This is not how you make friends, process your emotions properly, or snuff out the cinders of your burning rage and disappointment at life, everything and nothing in particular. You have feelings and reasons for those feelings, but if you cannot understand the part you have to play in your current situation then you will never truly be happy. You are the only constant in all of your interactions, and you are the strongest catalyst for change in your own life.

Reflect on this experience and I hope it will cause you to grow and change as a person. And talk to someone, even if it is to just vent your issues. Verbalizing problems grants new perspective and maybe that is what you need to get out of the rut you are in. But this cannot be the place for you to work it out. In the meantime, please don't do something stupid that will ruin or end your life.