itsukoii

would fight ruki because he's got pillow fists, but would probably knock me over the head with his chanel bag

ended my first relationship today (1yr 3 months). it went smoothly and i'm glad we mutually agreed we're better off as friends. but it still sucks, and after being in a relationship for so long i have this newly developed fear that i'll be alone forever even though i've NEVER given a shit about that lmao. hopefully it'll start to go away as i start focusing on my personal growth again. i regret none of it, because there was a LOT of valuable knowledge to take away from it. i start uni in the fall, so i want to take the summer to really get my act together. here's to a new chapter, i guess? i'm feeling optimistic, even if it's hard. i feel really relieved. if anyone has tips for dealing with a breakup tho, hey, send em my way ,,

^ been dyeing my hair for 4? years and it looks like that. lol. damage is unavoidable, but as long as it doesn't fall out who cares really

there was actually a well-organized numbering system that a few fans set up for VIP, not sure about GA. but i went around noon, planning to stay there all day, but i was instead given a number and told that i could go and come back as i pleased. when i came back around 5pm, the people in line let me in without issues when i showed them my number. the staff was something else though. lmao. scary and unprepared, i think. but everything went pretty smoothly despite it!

deviloof lmao

seeing this post nearly 3 years later has blown my fuckin mind. How the turns have tabled.

@riyusama i go by itsukoii everywhere, but i don't advise checking out my ao3 unless u want to cringe. i write some nasty stuff lol. used to write for lycaon (hiyuuki), but after i lost interest in them i've written for the gazette; my favourite pairings are reituki & aoiha but i have other ships too. same! i used to find a new band like every day, but now i just don't have the energy or the interest. i still follow deviloof i guess, but not to the extent i once did, and i've given up on initial'L completely. the gazette are where i'm at now tbh. i still listen to all the stuff i've collected over the past few years but i just won't go looking for it anymore, i feel like i've found all that i could possibly enjoy.

ao3 is the place i would know , i must confess i write the gay as well edit: tbh i also want to confess that i don't give two shits about today's vkei anymore. the current sound trends just don't appeal to me because i'm forever stuck in the 2000s shitkei i never actually got to experience when it happened lol. PLUS when my favourite bands (meji & lycaon) went normie i just. couldn't take it anymore lmao -- so i've found myself, embarrassingly enough, deep in the gazette fandom

the three dark age covers are my favourite!!!

vip nyc baybeeeee still debating toronto hm

no toronto, so thinkin about nyc!

going for a bachelor of fine arts next year. after that, i might go to college for illustration, but i don't really know. all i know is that i want to do art lol

WHAT chain disaster????!!!! oh fuck yes im SO hyped now

i have a good feeling about these new guys!! super excited to see what the next release is like

whether you're in an LDR or a close-proximity relationship, whether you find someone else in that time and decide to go for them either through cheating or breaking up with your current partner is dependent on you, and not the type of relationship (imo). i've been in an ldr for the past 7 months and although it gets hard, i can't see myself doing anything else, and i know this person is one i dearly want to be with. but that isn't for everyone; ldrs are really, really, fuckin hard. but even then, i can't imagine falling for someone else. i don't suggest "giving up" on love, because i believe it's a thing that happens when it's supposed to--by chance, and it can't be forced. tl;dr if you happen to fall for someone else while you're in a relationship, ldr or not, the best thing to do would to be honest and do what you think is right. and if you're someone who has fleeting crushes often, i don't really suggest acting on them unless you're looking for something short-term. but when you meet the person you may want to be long-term with... you'll know.

pre-ordered as soon as i clicked on the video. HOLY SHIT that vocalist is so up my alley, was skeptical because of everything that happened but i'm glad they're moving forward despite it 🤘

that semester was hell but it's finally over. thank FUCK

what did i do to deserve both initial'L and this monstrosity , god please ,, my sins i REPENT

life's doin a bit of a suck. haven't been on mh in forever, dog was euthanized on thursday, this semester has been SHIT but at least next week is my exams and then i'm done. Boy

NINTH ODD SMELL I FUCKING CALLED IT HAHA no matter what it sounds like it's definitely going to be my favourite

dude, thank you!! you've got me super hyped now haha (right now i don't have the money for something that big and complex, because i know the detail in it would be INSANE... but i think if i start saving soon and still want it in the next 2-3 years, i'll consider it seriously!)

i've got the desire to make up a collection of tattoos that all represent the gazette's dark age in some way, because that era means so damn much to me and the concepts are all things i adore. but i sense it'll be a huge project and i don't have any actual visual ideas yet lol