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Boppin to some GLAY today~ 
 
 

Would anyone be interested in Ruiza's solo album if I uploaded it? I know D is not super popular but it's a great mini-album and I would love to share the love~

I finally got my Ruiza solo bundle of stuff. It's all so cute, gaaaah. And his new single is so good, he sings again in it and it's adorable. I love itttt~!

Finally got my ZenMarket haul of Lareine and Kamijo stuff! Now to rip it all~

Finally got my ZenMarket haul of Lareine and Kamijo stuff! Now to rip it all~

Finally got my ZenMarket haul of Lareine and Kamijo stuff! Now to rip it all~

Today is the 18th in America, which means it's my sweet prince's birthday~ 
 
Happy Birthday, Ruiza ❤️ 
 
 

Today is the 18th in America, which means it's my sweet prince's birthday~ 
 
Happy Birthday, Ruiza ❤️ 
 
 

Got my Rentrer En Soi cds today. Time to burn them all and listen to them forever lmao

Got my Rentrer En Soi cds today. Time to burn them all and listen to them forever lmao

Got my Rentrer En Soi cds today. Time to burn them all and listen to them forever lmao

So I'm really digging "DAVID" a lot more than I thought I would. 
 
Also bonus points for looking like Lareine Kamijo with that long blonde hair hurrr

This may sound weird,but
 
I alway felt I was put here to make ppl have a great time.,To make them laugh & cry.,but above all...Make them feel....
 
SPECIAL😘💋
 
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I booked my hotel room for my trip to Japan in October. And I'm definitely going to go both concert hopping, and visual Kei shopping. But the only bands that I really like that are still doing concerts are Dir En Grey, D, Matenrou Opera, Kamijo and One Ok rock! 
 
What are some bands that I should check out? Maybe buy some cheaper cds of theirs while I'm at Closet Child? Also what places should I go to? I'll be staying right in the heart of Shinjuku, right by the subway/train, so I can literally train anywhere. 
 
I know that I'm going to go to Like An Edison, Jishuban Club, and Closet Child. But I definitely want to explore Tokyo. The last time I went, I didn't get to do what I wanted to, but this year I'm going to be ONLY in Tokyo, so I want to experience as much of it as I can! And go to concerts! (I only went to one because I had pre-purchased tickets.) 
 
I just hope the bands that I want to see are playing while I'm there haha!
 
I'll be there October 24th - November 7th, so if anyone has suggestions as to what I should do during that time, I would LOVE to hear them!! ❤️ 

Goodness, I've been listening to so much Lareine lately. And I have fallen in love with Lillie Charlotte. ❤️ 
 
 

I just watched the entire Kamijo 20th Anniversary DVD "La Vie En Rose" and I don't even know how I feel right now. It feels like I've ascended to another realm. It just amazes me how GOOD Kamijo is on stage. I think I'm feeling my past 12 years of love all at once, since I mentioned before that I had to like him in secret, since my friend would get mad if I even mentioned him without her saying something first (Versailles was the exception because I liked Jasmine). 
 
But oh man, I feel so happy that I watched that. It was a great dvd. I really really hope that he's performing when I go on my trip to Japan, because I NEED to actually experience one of his lives. 
 
He has gained the number two spot as far as favorite bands go. Sorry D'espairsRay, I love you, but the only other band that has ever made me feel this way is D. I just. I can't even describe it right now. But I feel so good. I could feel the love he had for his fans in his music. It's so lovely. Even though this was from 2015 and was pre-recorded, I still felt the love through the screen. Such a weird feeling. 
 
But bless you, Kamijo. I hope I get to see you live one day. ❤️ 

I just watched the entire Kamijo 20th Anniversary DVD "La Vie En Rose" and I don't even know how I feel right now. It feels like I've ascended to another realm. It just amazes me how GOOD Kamijo is on stage. I think I'm feeling my past 12 years of love all at once, since I mentioned before that I had to like him in secret, since my friend would get mad if I even mentioned him without her saying something first (Versailles was the exception because I liked Jasmine). 
 
But oh man, I feel so happy that I watched that. It was a great dvd. I really really hope that he's performing when I go on my trip to Japan, because I NEED to actually experience one of his lives. 
 
He has gained the number two spot as far as favorite bands go. Sorry D'espairsRay, I love you, but the only other band that has ever made me feel this way is D. I just. I can't even describe it right now. But I feel so good. I could feel the love he had for his fans in his music. It's so lovely. Even though this was from 2015 and was pre-recorded, I still felt the love through the screen. Such a weird feeling. 
 
But bless you, Kamijo. I hope I get to see you live one day. ❤️ 

Goodness, I've been listening to so much Lareine lately. And I have fallen in love with Lillie Charlotte. ❤️ 
 
 

I love this so much cuz they're all playing each other's instruments. Also Tsukasa as Vocals is just yaaaaaas 
 
 

this will never not be my favourite vk pv tbh. dat contrast aesthetic, i live
 

I got a goodie today, and it has a whole bunch of my favorite people in it. But I mainly bought it for Kamijo and Ruiza. 
 
https://imgur.com/a/ExP7ACZ
 
(I still don't know how to embed pics lmaoooo)
 

Man I just remembered 酔奴隸(Yoidore). I haven't listened to this song since high school. <3333
 

lol I mean...was another shoe imprint pic really that hard to find tho

This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha. 
 
I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.
 
Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us. 
 
I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.
 
I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist. 
 
I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways. 
 
I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band. 
 
And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world. 
 
I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.
 
Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it. 
 
"Remember Forever." 
 
A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.
 
I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.
 
After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on. 
 
Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again. 
 
For Jasmine's sake.