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I change my purse out today, go to an event, and of course when I get home, my cat has puked all over my good purse -_-;;; Thanks, Onyx

So I'm really digging "DAVID" a lot more than I thought I would. 

Also bonus points for looking like Lareine Kamijo with that long blonde hair hurrr

That feeling when you order vk cds and you have to wait for them to get to you. But you want them NOW. 

I booked my hotel room for my trip to Japan in October. And I'm definitely going to go both concert hopping, and visual Kei shopping. But the only bands that I really like that are still doing concerts are Dir En Grey, D, Matenrou Opera, Kamijo and One Ok rock! 

What are some bands that I should check out? Maybe buy some cheaper cds of theirs while I'm at Closet Child? Also what places should I go to? I'll be staying right in the heart of Shinjuku, right by the subway/train, so I can literally train anywhere. 

I know that I'm going to go to Like An Edison, Jishuban Club, and Closet Child. But I definitely want to explore Tokyo. The last time I went, I didn't get to do what I wanted to, but this year I'm going to be ONLY in Tokyo, so I want to experience as much of it as I can! And go to concerts! (I only went to one because I had pre-purchased tickets.) 

I just hope the bands that I want to see are playing while I'm there haha!

I'll be there October 24th - November 7th, so if anyone has suggestions as to what I should do during that time, I would LOVE to hear them!! ❤️ 

I just watched the entire Kamijo 20th Anniversary DVD "La Vie En Rose" and I don't even know how I feel right now. It feels like I've ascended to another realm. It just amazes me how GOOD Kamijo is on stage. I think I'm feeling my past 12 years of love all at once, since I mentioned before that I had to like him in secret, since my friend would get mad if I even mentioned him without her saying something first (Versailles was the exception because I liked Jasmine). 

But oh man, I feel so happy that I watched that. It was a great dvd. I really really hope that he's performing when I go on my trip to Japan, because I NEED to actually experience one of his lives. 

He has gained the number two spot as far as favorite bands go. Sorry D'espairsRay, I love you, but the only other band that has ever made me feel this way is D. I just. I can't even describe it right now. But I feel so good. I could feel the love he had for his fans in his music. It's so lovely. Even though this was from 2015 and was pre-recorded, I still felt the love through the screen. Such a weird feeling. 

But bless you, Kamijo. I hope I get to see you live one day. ❤️ 

Goodness, I've been listening to so much Lareine lately. And I have fallen in love with Lillie Charlotte. ❤️ 

I love this so much cuz they're all playing each other's instruments. Also Tsukasa as Vocals is just yaaaaaas 

I got a goodie today, and it has a whole bunch of my favorite people in it. But I mainly bought it for Kamijo and Ruiza. 

https://imgur.com/a/ExP7ACZ

(I still don't know how to embed pics lmaoooo)

This is going to be a really long post, but I literally lost sleep last night thinking about this haha. 

I really also don't know why I'm posting this. Maybe I just need to post it somewhere where people will understand. The community that I love so much.

Music really has a way to change us, mold us, and destroy us. 

I was super into Versailles when they formed. I had always liked Kamijo, and followed him pretty extensively through his Lareine career; although I had to do it through my friend who liked him, she would get mad if I liked him. But that's a different story.

I had been a fan of Versailles since the day they started. I fell in love with "The Revenant Choir" instantly. And I fell even more in love with Jasmine You, the beautiful, talented bassist. 

I ended up spending all of the money from my first job on Versailles and D stuff. To the point where I made stupid mistakes and overdrafted my account and my parents had to bail me out hah. But I knew that I had found something amazing. Versailles touched my heart in so many ways. 

I ended up owning (and still do), their entire discography up through Jubilee. Including rare live-only cds and things I had to use shopping services to purchase. I had to have it, I had to support this amazingly talented band. 

And then it hit me like a bag of bricks. Jasmine You had passed away. As quickly as they had come, they were gone. And I couldn't handle it. I was such a huge fan of his, I lost it. I had never cried over a celebrity death before, but I literally played "Episode" over 1,000 times, my grief was very strong. I didn't know how to deal with the fact that a musician that I loved so dearly was gone from the world. 

I didn't touch Versailles for years. I wouldn't follow them, wouldn't buy their other cds. I was grieving in that way. I didn't want to hear Versailles without Jasmine in it. And whenever any of their Jasmine-included songs would play, I would skip it, as it would upset me to the point of tears. I just couldn't do it.

Last night, I was watching some Kamijo videos. I can listen to his solo stuff just fine. And Lareine, too. Lareine is one of my favorite older bands; so I'm okay with them. On youtube, I was just clicking around. Watching Kamijo video after video. And then I saw it. 

"Remember Forever." 

A song dedicated to Jasmine, that I had never listened to, because it was on a cd that I had never bought. That I didn't know existed, because I had excluded myself from the world of Versailles. It was a live video, so I clicked on it.

I was not expecting the emotional ride that I went on. Purple lights on the stage; lights for him. For my bassist. And a song that was so beautiful, I started bawling my eyes out. It was written for him, and you could tell. The quietness of the audience made it even more real. But it was beautiful.

After I had finished watching it, I spent a lot of time just listening to Versailles. Thinking about Jasmine, and how happy he had made me when he was alive. And I realized that I shouldn't be afraid of change. I should continue to go on, even if something sad, or horrible happens. And that I should continue on. 

Jasmine is a beautiful person, a memory that should never be forgotten. And I never will forget about him. It'll be 10 years in November since his passing. And I think I'm brave enough to play Versailles again. To REALLY enjoy them again. 

For Jasmine's sake. 

AhhhH! I won the day yesterday! How fun! ❤️ 

I've been on a Lareine kick lately. I love Kamijo so much, and I've loved him for years. I actually had a friend who got mad at me for liking Kamijo, because only SHE could like Kamijo. So I had to like him in secret. I'm glad that I finally get to listen to him without worrying about her coming down on me. She's not in my life anymore, so I am free to enjoy my music.

Getting hyped to see them in March.... 

Woke up to this song stuck in my head..... 

Is anyone going to the One Ok Rock Concert in Seattle?  

I started a "30 days of J-rock" challenge on my facebook. People seem to be into it! I'm glad I can spread the J-rock love!!! ❤️

Do people still listen to D? Because I just was gifted their newest single and it's really beautiful. 

I appreciate the fact that your header image is Vidoll! Gosh, I miss them. Good taste!

It's so nice to talk to people who like j-rock again. It's hard to relate with a lot of my friends because not a lot of them like the same music as I do. So this, this is nice. I feel so welcomed.

I completely forgot that Porno Graffitti was still around. Lord, I feel old. XD

I listened to Dir En Grey's newest album last night. And I am thoroughly impressed by it. It was really a wonderful album to listen to, and reminded me of a lot of their older music. I didn't like their "Westernized" albums as much as their old stuff, so I am very pleased that they've gone back to their roots. I may even purchase the album since I liked it that much. Definitely a good album to check out.

Rekindling my love for MUCC. 

HELLO 

Loving Ruiza more than I already do.