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Which legitimately no one said. I don’t know why The Inferno, or new Dir en grey material in general, triggers you as much as it does. It literally set you off into being a passive aggressive asshole out of nowhere when I commented on how much I enjoy the song. I get it, you’re upset I corrected you in our conversation a few days ago and this was your chance to get back at me, but please try to act less petty, ESPECIALLY when you evidently don’t know a single thing about music and the only term you remotely know is “motif” to make up for your lack of musical vocabulary.

Not to rain on your parade, and I'm sure not all depressed people are like this, but... If you are severely, clinically depressed, it's hard enough to get out of the bed each day to perform mundane tasks, let alone get out of the house. Travelling in that case is out of question. And another thing people have recommended: the councillors or psychiatrists or therapists. Sounds good, but doesn't always work. And I don't mean the therapy itself. I mean being in a situation where you can see one. Even in the UK, where I live, it seems to be near impossible to get a referral to a psychiatrist unless you're literally moments away from suicide. I certainly didn't get one, and my depression is crippling, albeit not life threatening as it is. Then you have, of course, the private way. And hey, that involves money. Lots of money, from one session with a professional varying from £50 to £100. To have that amount of money to spare, you need a job. To get and hold a job, you need to be able to leave your home and expose yourself to strange or unpleasant situations. And if getting out of bed and taking a shower is sometimes and overwhelming achievement, doing all that is going to be quite difficult. I'm personally not comfortable sharing much about how my depressive mind works, but I have a little wisdom to give: Take the pills if you need them. It's a majorly annoying fad nowadays that people think pills are prescribed for no reason and they just make you sleepwalk through your life, or that you can cure your depression by going out and enjoying the world. If you have a serious problem; if your depression is taking over your life and you can no longer function properly with it, take the pills. The decision to allow yourself to be medicated for a serious condition doesn't make you weak. It doesn't make you "the sheeple of medical industry". If you need it, you take it, and it doesn't make you less of a person.

Now we’re at the crux of the issue. Not only are you musically ignorant, you also don’t like the direction the band has gone (*cough* metal *cough*). Which is fine, you don’t have to like the direction Dir en grey has gone musically; but when you make arguments out of ignorance to inflate the importance of your half-baked opinion, it warrants correction. Just keep that in mind. Also, please keep your silly American politics out of this thread, thanks.

I'm a lil bit overwhelmed, thanks to each and every of you for your replies. To make it clear, it's not clinical depression, it's much less than that. I've got no problems eating, interacting with people when I'm put in a social situation and such. Where it's really affecting me is in my motivation, my productivity, my drive and my relationships outside of people I interact with mostly on a daily basis. It's a state of me most of the time feeling worthless and feeling like I'm wasting my time everyday, not progressing in life, as if I've hit a wall. 80% of last year was spent mostly with uni, not really being able to work on what I wanted to do. The graphic design course doesn't have end of semester exams like other courses, it focuses only on assignments throughout the semester, so I can't really slack on that. When I actually have the time for myself, I feel too emotionally drained to actually get up and get to work on my personal life. I'm aware I'm mostly making excuses, and that's what's making it worse: I'm aware of it, and I want to be able to change my mindset. I'm 21, turning 22 in around 2 weeks. I'm already in my 3rd year of graphic design so I'll finish it, and I do plan on maybe taking on another course, but that would be when I leave the country I currently live in. I live in Mauritius, which is not bad of a country, but not really a good place to be if you're not planning to work "common" jobs such as accountant, manager, and such. I'm trying to slowly work on what I love, that is songwriting. I'm working on it in small chunks though, if I work for too long on it I feel mentally drained, especially since my personal problems are still dragging on my mind a little. Anyway, thank you for your reply Hey it's cool you know, it seems like you needed a small place to vent out too, so don't worry about going overboard here. We all need to let it out sometimes right? Thanks for your reply, this is the only place I talked about my depression, and tbh just letting it out here felt like it did lighten this burden a little. I do hope it helped you too to vent a little, we're all in this life together, so let's just try and make smth nice out of it. Hey thanks for sharing your experience, right now one of the biggest problems I'm dealing is overthinking everything I do. It's bad, most days I just sleep and eat when my parents aren't dragging me out of the house. But exercising did help me get out a little of this lethargic state. Hopefully I can find ways to stop, or at least reduce how much I overthink, because it's really putting a big burden on my songwriting. I agree with you, especially about the grind. The monotony of this cycle is something I've always dreaded ever since I first experienced it. Having your pay at the end of each month isn't really motivating, it's much more about survival, you gotta do it if you want to live in this society. I'd love to make a living out of music but I know it's not realistic, especially not where I live. I'm still going to work towards this goal though, while trying to find jobs in fields related to music, always good to have a fail-safe. I don't think I've reached the point yet where I need medication, I still have some fight left in me, I want to get better and I want to improve myself, and I don't want to spend the rest of my days hating my life and myself. Thanks for your reply. Meditation is something I've been contemplating for a while, I just don't know where to start. Where did you start learning kaizen? Online? Or somewhere near where you live? I think it would really help me especially with concentration and productivity. Heh yeah, doing what you like or being surrounded by people you like is really helpful, but sometimes I just fall back into it when I'm not surrounded by positive stimuli, you know? But as for travelling, it's something I'm definitely planning. I want to move away actually, I think changing my environment could help. I'm thinking maybe Canada. Japan would be someplace I'd love to visit someday, it's been my dream ever since I was a little weeb. Thanks for your reply I'm luckily not in the state where my depression is as crippling and/or life threatening. What it really cripples right now is my productivity and my motivation. Sometimes it happens that in quite short bursts I get the urge to actually do shit, and this usually lasts for 2 hours max, and then for a week straight I won't get the courage to do things. I'm trying to slowly work on this, and do small chunks everyday. I do hope that your case is improving, slowly maybe but surely, take care of yourself. Thanks to all of you for your replies, and sorry I wasn't able to reply to everyone here, the posts and support here are just overwhelming, thank you so much.

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Hello MH ppl, like I basically make every year, this is my list from what I enjoyed the most from 2017, I took more than I expect to create and elaborate it due to some things related to my university, but that is now fixed. This time I have done some changes on it's structure and to look more clean with smaller pictures. I did a top 10 for singles, mini albums and full albums, with small reviews for all of them. Check it, give me some feedback if you like it, and if you have shared the same feeling in one/more releases below. Also, later check HERE to see what are my "all starts" rating for what I have listened during the whole 2017, and if you think I'm missing a release, let me know so I can look for it and listen. SINGLES: 1. RAZOR - DNA First note for the single, I don't like the DNA song, but I felt in love with the songs for ネイキッド (Naked) and 嫌、嫌、嫌 (Iya, Iya, Iya). The major guitar riffs from 嫌、嫌、嫌 and all the worked with the music composition was already a gem to make an entry to my favorites releases from 2017. But during my first listen to the single, most to point right after 嫌、嫌、嫌 , there was ネイキッド to start. During it's first seconds I knew that this would be interesting to listen, and during every moment from this song I felt thinking, "IS THIS REALITY?". I didn't had that feeling in a long time. That feeling with the already great 嫌、嫌、嫌 one, made it to be my favorite single, and as well my favorite release from 2017. Favorite inside: ネイキッド, 嫌、嫌、嫌 2. REIGN - COBALT A surprise, but not so suprise because it's Ikuma's related. I do like his vocals since the first days on the band アンド (Ando). I personally had no trust into REIGN when they debut, I found their first singles kind boring saving maximun song per single, but when Kaji (drummer) left and Rami joined the band, they changed drastically changed their music, for me, they changed for good. Later Rami left and Kazuhiro become their 3rd and newer drummer. Kazuhiro perfectly fits on them. I couldn't expect REIGN would grow that much with him. COBALT is unbelievable my favorite work from those guys. The single carry a mystical intro with VENOM and his full music set, followed by Death Mary which is a very well made jazzy song, and so MOON CHILD, a great ballad song. Favorite inside: ALL 3. ラッコ - 虫入りチョコレート Great part here knows I'm one of Tenten's hardcore fan club listeners, so It wouldn't be a yaki's list without he being part of it. 虫入りチョコレート (Mushiri Chocolate) is still my favorite from them from 2017, I'm still missing their 数の原理 , 溝鼠賛歌 and 弱肉教職. But 虫入りチョコレート songs style is what I expect ラッコ to make during their next release acts. ラッコ by far isn't my best Tenten, and probably won't be. No doubt they need some improvement for future, and they have potential for this, their line up members are great and skilled. Hyped to meet their future steps. Favorite inside: 雨の怪虫, 液体, 幽囚谷のバッタ 4. RAZOR - LIQUID VAIN Being RAZOR's second single, they was successful at building good release, and a stunning song main song, LIQUID VAIN is a almost 6 minutes long song that doesn't leak it's quality from the began to the very end. I also like 邪崩 (Evil) and ADAMZ a lot, but it looks like they don't fit very well in the same pack. Waiting for their next single, and what color will be feature. Favorite inside: LIQUID VAIN, 邪崩 5. DADAROMA - いいくすりと、わるいくすり After getting a bit dissapointed with DADAISM#3 in earlier 2017, I become into a possible hopeless about what they would make, and if this kind of style were going to be into next releases. They got my trust again with on them with their following single, but yet nothing compared to what DADAROMA did so far on their past years. Later, they made an info report for いいくすりと、わるいくすり (iikusuri, waruikusuri) to come on November. いいくすりと、わるいくすり was their best way to close DADAROMA's year, songs like いいくすり and アリス イン アンダーグラウンド(Alice in Underground) and 2017年 7月 21日の日記 makes me proud of this band. Favorite inside: いいくすり, アリス イン アンダーグラウンド, 2017年 7月 21日の日記. 6. アルルカン - 影法師 What to say about 影法師 (Kageboushi) that isn't related to high level music? Love at first sight and listen, this is still one of a few singles that I listen on it's full size on repeat, without skipping or getting tired. No doubt this is the kind of music I enjoy the most for them to make. I wish アルルカン would be able to keep 影法師 and ジレンマ style for some upcoming releases, which are my favorite releases so far. Favorite inside: ALL 7. アクメ - マグロ解体チェーンソー After DIV's sad disbandment and seeing months passing by, and nothing about Chisa to return to the scene with a new band. I suddenly got bumped by an info reporting a band to debut, and guess what, Chisa was on it with Shogo. I become totally fulfilled the most when listening to アクメ's マグロ解体チェーンソー (Maguro Kaitai Chainsaw). The full single vibe turned into an blend/mixing with electro and rock. This was probably Chisa and Shogo wished to keep for DIV. マグロ解体チェーンソー is an impressive main song with a good composition work and also back vocals that worked incredible well. Followed by Cry Wolf, that carry a heavy beats and riffs. Favorite inside: マグロ解体チェーンソー, Cry Wolf 8. DEZERT - 撲殺ヒーロー I started to listen DEZERT when they made their debut into the scene, but never became a fan from what they released later. At a most recent status, I gave them another check for them with their two occult best albums, and their music finally triggered on me. I got even more interest when Vivi (ex.Moran) joined them. Vivi turned into Miyako, and he put on the table heavy skilled guitar, something he never made with Moran. Their 撲殺ヒーロー (Bokusatsu Hero) single, is a very balanced release and gave some fabulous and yet unknow feelings for DEZERT. Favorite inside: 幸福のメロディー, ヘドロママ, 遭難(piano version) 9. lynch - BLOODY THIRSTY CREATURES With the news regarding Akinori left to fix some personal problems, I got feared about what this could affect lynch and their future endevoures for music in general. Something like lost of their remarkable style didn't happen and BLOOD THIRSTY CREATURES was a blast for all of their songs. This single got me the same feelings I once got with I BELIEVE IN ME single years ago, which since that time is still my favorite single. Favorite inside: ALL 10. ZON - Mr.GONG I still remember when this band came to start activities, I got to follow those guys for their look, later became interest on their music when they first released "Heads up!", I wasn't mistaken to keep listening to them. Mr.GONG is an amusing single, the main song and replica is what I look more into. Looking foward to their upcoming mini album and futher music releases to those guys. Favorite inside: Mr.GONG, replica

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Oh hell yes im ready for the mini and another live distro... not ready for that

My way of dealing with it was to develop an iron will through meditation, will strengthening exercises and the Japanese concept of 'kaizen' (seriously google this). Now at every moment of the day I am using these concepts for working on ways to make my life better and avoiding thinking about any negatives aspects of my life. Right now I am learning Japanese, writing a book, and going to the gym which are my three main hobbies. The hardest part is at work because work sucks but I am using willpower to apply for other jobs and meditation has helped trained my mind to avoid thinking of work outside of work hours. I guess it is just distracting myself but that's how most adults live anyway and if that distraction can lead to a positive outcome then it is definitely a good thing. I know this different from how most people deal with it but the first step is to work out if your depression is a chemical imbalance or caused by your life sucking. If its the former I don't have much advice except see a professional. This is coming from a guy who was a NEET for over a year and has been depressed for years. Since about June I have been mostly happy.

only gives you happy feeling dor short time or it gives you an even worser feeling.... XD

So I guess they want to play a game...

Hope you're all having a good day I wanted to start a tread about your favourite VK/JR guitarists. It doesn't really matter what the criteria are for you, whether it's jaw-dropping technical ability, songwriting, versatility, influence, originality, sound or just looking really damn cool. The guys or girls who can start playing and have your attention from the first note, or who can crank out that favourite riff that makes your heart open up like a flower. Tell us who and why In no particular order: 1. hide (there's a shocker!). For just about all the reasons above. For sounding cool and passionate whether he's doing early X-Japan speed metal, Zilch-style industrial metal, groove-laden rock tunes like 'Pink Spider' or just high quality pop like 'Tell Me'. For throwing in technically flawless neo-classical harmonised leads, twangy country licks, 50s-style rockabilly phrases or even dipping into reggae, ambient and drum'n'bass. Such a wealth of talent and creativity. 2. You (Yuji Adachi) from Dead End. A very underrated player from a band that's influenced just about everyone. A mountain of cool metal tunes, as well as eastern-flavoured emotional ballads like the incredible 'Serafine', and some simply jaw-dropping effects-laden rippling guitar lines in 'Good Morning Satellite'. He can shred with the best of them, but saves it for when the song needs it. Successfully updated his sound into a hard-egded contemporary metal crunch full of complex riffs and squealing harmonics. 3. Cypher from D'erlanger. Despite being early icons of the VK scene, he doesn't get much credit for his raucous blend of rock, glam. punk and goth that sounds like he's fighting with the guitar rather than playing it. And he does look damn cool while he's doing it. 4. Kaoru from D'espairsRay. A master of industrial metal crunch, constructing pummelling but sometimes almost funky big rock riffs, but fully capable of bringing in the melodies where necessary, as well as cool high-register synth-inspired lead parts. 5. K.A.Z. from Vamps. Not a flashy player or prominent lead guitarist, together with Hyde he turns out big rock riffs that stay in your head for days. It's mostly fairly straightforward 5th chord, drop-D stuff, but even a few ill-advised ballads can't hide the fact that he's got a big flair for huge choruses and an overdriven but melodic sound. You could dismiss it as party rock, but it always gets me in the mood. Of course, there are plenty of others- the criminally overlooked Pata, post-punk-inspired masters like Hikari from Der Zibet and the guys from Buck-Tick (and on and on)- but these guys would be my top five. I'd love to hear what other people think!

「高潮トキシコーシス」album cover was published~ Also they will be distributing 「未練雪」 at their one-man live on 02/12.

Hi there people, it's been ages since I've been on this website. I've been a member for a really long time (maybe a few of you might remember me), but during the last two years or so I started having depression, and this made me become less and less socially active here, on facebook, etc, and even irl. The only people with whom I was interacting with were my friends at university and my girlfriend (who's in the same group of friends as I). It wasn't bad depression as in I wanted to off myself, but it was bad enough to suck a LOT of my positivity and joy of living, which caused me to slowly closing myself in my cocoon, become pessimistic and unmotivated. And last year it also made my relationship with my girlfriend deteriorate. I tried to pinpoint what caused this depression and i think it was partly because of university. What I'm studying there feels completely bland to me. I'm studying graphic design and it has it's interesting moments, but a lot of it is bloated with repetitive and numbing tasks/assignments. And the other part is since I'm doing something I'm not passionate about, I started feeling really scared and stressed about my future. Recently, before the new year I started to try and pick myself up. I realised that if I continued down this road I would be a speck of who I was, and I don't want to "lose myself" (so cliche omfg sorry). I started to try and think more positively and try to make something out of this negativity. I started to exercise, and picking up songwriting, since music is really what I'm passionate about, and I want to work towards it, even though I still have to deal with graphic design and I probably won't be able to make a living out of music if I don't plan things properly, and actually write regularly. Even though I may not make a living with music, I still want to try my best, and if it doesn't work, at least I tried and I can still keep it as a hobby. I'd like to know, if anyone ever experienced depression here, however light or heavy it was, how did you get out of it? How did you cope with it? Also sorry if this isn't the right place to post this.

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@doombox I just realize it when creating the list lol 甘い暴力 has all of their songs on yt, which is really cool. @Triangle Yes, I think I got stunned by all the beautiful three covers albums. Koroshi no Shirabe, for those effects you just mentioned, for the green shinning line which draws Shin Homura, and the Blood effect for Shin Tsuuzetsu. The guys should make more like those.

Is there some people intersted in hearing BUK BUK single "透明になった○○" ? I've had it for a long time but too lazy to bother uploading it lol

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I wasn't specific into this but i remember mentioning that this isn't for everyone by saying people are different in which i was never specific about "I know that many people are different and have many things that make them happy." The advice is more of an encouragement to do said task. Yes some people as you stated might be in capable this is why i wrote Advice next to it. All in all encouragement for travel because generally some people who are depressed stay in one place and don't wanna do much as you stated. This is encouragement for getting out there.

2006 Dir en Grey (Family Values Tour Dallas) 2017-3-17 MERRY/sukekiyo/犬神サーカス團 (Misono Universe) 2017-4-30 ザアザア (Osaka Muse) 2017-5-5 MERRY (日比谷野外音楽堂) 2017-5-14 摩天楼オペラ (神戸VARIT) 2017-5-24 ゴア/素晴らしき日々。/アザナ/ゼログミ/一輪は瓦礫の隙間から/チャイルドプレイ (心斎橋FANJ) 2017-6-7 0.1gの誤差/ザアザア/SCAPEGOAT/Chanty/Neverland (高田馬場AREA) 2017-7-21 0.1gの誤差 (新宿RUIDO K4) 2017-8-7 ゴア／素晴らしき日々。/SCAPEGOAT/REIGN/HOLYCLOCK/KilloneX (大阪RUIDO) 2017-8-19 exist trace (恵比寿club aim) 2017-8-26 MERRY 渋谷www 2017-9-8 ゴア／グリーヴァ／グリモア/REIGN/ THE BLACK SWAN/GREEM (池袋EDGE) 2017-9-16 ザアザア/DADAROMA (HOLIDAY NEXT NAGOYA) 2017-9-18 ゴア/CANIVAL/BabyKingdom/シェルミィ/ビバラッシュ(梅田ZEELA) 2017-9-24 MERRY (静岡Sunash) 2017-9-27 0.1gの誤差／甘い暴力／REIGN/MORRIGAN (池袋EDGE) 2017-10-7 0.1gの誤差 (池袋CYBER)

For me Visual kei music is the best cure idk why it just calms me down and if not then i pretty much do what makes me happy (Video games, friends etc..) Ive slowly learned that there is a cause sometimes at least for me (Fear is major). The times that there are no cause i wait it out by doing the things i love which make me happy or bonding with people that i know will make me happy. I know that many people are different and have many things that make them happy. Whatever it is hopefully it isn't negative >.< and Hopefully it makes you happy. Advice wise: Experience the world its very vast and big to understand. Some not all but some people don't fully understand that to a point. So Explore get in a car/plane and go somewhere anywhere hopefully no where dangerous. Maybe japan XD. Either way how you travel you'll experience a lot. (Disclaimer: I have never done this because i was either never allowed or have no money but i plan to)

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Wow, I didn't realize so many best of albums were released last year! O_O I'm so happy you liked 新葬ラ謳 and 殺シノ調べII. I also enjoyed Shin, Lynch., and Dezert releases you listed too. I somehow missed all news about 甘い暴力 so I will have to check them out now.

moran - they're like a, um.....like a butterfly in a cocoon? so they be like, some type of like a cocoon. then they grow, so as hitomi is walking down to the run-walking down the runway, he's gonna grow. cuz the butt-the butterfly is actually is in the cocoon, this is the cocoon. and which is moran, the butterfly.

what do u think the dir en grey guy's eat for breakfast every day

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FULL ALBUMS: 1. JAKIGAN MEISTER - ejacuIation The first is full award is nothing less than my all time favorite guitarrist also knowed as Sakito (lead guitar for NIGHTMARE). After NIGHTMARE went hiatus and all the members got into different solo projects, this is what I was waiting the most. JAKIGAN MEISTER also has Ni-ya (bassist for NIGHTMARE). For the first time, Sakito become the major vocalist from a band. The songs on the album don't seem that good playing one at once, but it got really good when playing everything together, a conection between all can be notice. Favorite inside: ALL 2.Kra - Kraのすゝめ Another genious move from Kra, this best album prove that they are enough great to keep during another 10 years around. Even it being a best album, I still believe the main reason for it being made was for Taizo take part on those fabulous songs. Favorite inside: ALL 3. MUCC - 新葬ラ謳 One fragement from MUCC fabulous year, and surely what a digged the most. It was my first time ever checking 葬ラ謳 songs, and it was my time to know why people claimed this to be one of their best ever made album. This release changed all my perspective from them, changed from regular to good. Enjoying basically 90% inside, I want to be able to listen it on my next life. Favorite inside: ズタズタ, 僕が本当の僕に耐え切れず造った本当の僕, 絶望, ホムラウタ, 幸せの終着, 暗闇に咲く花, 黒煙, 君に幸あれ 4. THE GAZETTE - TRACES VOL.2 - BALLAD The so hyped release from 2017 by great part from 2017, and also a self request ballad album from THE GAZETTE surfaced into being a remastered version. A shame with some songs and blessing move for others. I it would be lie to say I like everything, cos I didn't, some of my most favorites like 枯詩(Kare Uta), D.L.N, 白き憂鬱(Shiroki no yuutsu) hadn't the same feeling I once had for the original versions... but songs like reila, CASSIS and WITHOUT A TRACE was well remastered after all. Wish they also could have done a remaster for 飼育れた春、変われぬ春 (Shiikureta Haru, Kawarenu Haru). I won't be tagging for the favorite, but for the better well remastered. Favorite inside: reila, CASSIS, WITHOUT A TRACE, 紅蓮 and 絲. 5. NOCTURNAL BLOODLUST - BEST 09'17 Nokubura turned to be one of my favorite "playing heavy" bands. Besides some bands actually make, their best album is def with their best in. I would just change the new version from "bullet of skyline" to the Ivy's version. Favorite inside: ALL (less the new version of "bullet in skyline"). 6. vistlip - BitterSweet I like vistlip since SINDRA got released, since this day was a love relation with those guys and their music. When the time came with more and more releases, I become even more interest to think if they would be able to make a 10th and go even futher. They just celebrate this mark in 2017, making a wonderful release with what I believe to have the kind of music path a follow more for them. Favorite inside: WIMP, Walking Dead, MONOGRAM, BLACK BOX, 星一つ灯らないこんな夜に。, CONTRAST, BABEL and COLD CASE. 7. Purple Stone - 赤と青 The 7th position goes to one of my most interest/addicted bands. Also being a best album, the album is no doubt a good start for those who wants to give the boys a try. Songs like ミラーボール (Mirror Ball), デサバ (Desaba), sakura and Imperial Dragon are their newest into this release, also seems to follow a new direction ito how their others songs on it are. Bringing up some really interesting japanese's traditional music fusing with their original good style. Favorite inside: ALL (less 素晴らしきこの世界へ and 嘘つきピエロ) 8. 己龍 - 二〇〇七～二〇一七 (2007-2017) Along with 和楽器バンド, 己龍 is probably the band that was more succesful into pleases with the mix of traditional japanese instruments and rock music. Their best album is not a a totally let down, songs were way better than some older, but I think they had a lack into remastering 悦ト鬱 but still a song without doubt. Favorite inside: 泡沫, 彩, 悦ト鬱, 灯, 天照, 月下美人, 九尾, 花魁譚, 叫声, 雨夜ニ笑エバ, 愛怨忌焔, 明鏡止水, 月ノ姫, アカイミハジケタ, 私ハ傀儡、猿轡ノ人形 9. MUCC - 殺シノ調べII After so many good releases from MUCC in 2017, I couldn't be missing this one here, it surely has it's potential. This shinning cover is also fabulous. Favorite inside: 茫然自失, 儚くとも, 流星, Mr. Liar, ファズ and 翼を下さい 10. THE NOVEMBERS - BEST BEFORE Can't say if this is their best album, cos I didn't follow them so close, but I know this album have what I like the most in quality from them. Flower of life still grows as my best song from them. Favorite inside: Flower of life, Romancé, きれいな海へ, keep me keep me keep me, Xeno, dysphoria (Before Today version), Misstopia, human flow (dip cover), バースデイ, 今日も生きたね.

What I learned from watching other people is that talking to someone feels nice and even if you don't get a solution to your problem, at least you got it out of your chest. I'm not the type to talk about my problems and I tend to "self-cure" myself too much. But when I actually do talk with people, it feels great. People like friends or my mum. I cut out all the toxic people I used to have in my life and feel way better. And music. That helps calm down my inner "demons". I also learned from a youtuber that I should love myself more and hate somebody else instead XD. I never had suicidal thoughts or stuff but sometimes it does feel stuffy and days will end up with swollen eyes from too much crying and anxiety makes me lose it but, I managed to not fall too into deep, because, I was lucky enough to have a mother like mine, who is a combination of an angel and a tornado at the same time. I also have a best friend who annoys me more so that I don't have energy to hate myself. But in the end, if you feel alone, there is no shame in seeking for help or admitting that you are struggling.

Hey @Kira_Uchiha! Been a while! Depression is a hell of a weight to shoulder. No one is immune to it, and the many forms of depression are still being discovered. I wish I could share my experiences, but time constraints limit me to do so at the moment. (maybe I will post it here later) The ways I have dealt with depression in the past, required a game of trial and error. I say "trial and error", because you don't know what will work for you. Mistakes will be made. Learning to accept that not every method that you read/hear about will work for you, is a great start. Depression is not some cold that will go away with some medicine, nor is it something that once gone, will never come back. The sooner you can see it from this perspective, the less impact/harm it can do to you, whether or not you were to go through depression more than once. We all know that the only enemies during depression are you and yourself. If you find that the methods you are trying out aren't making a night/day difference, the methods simply aren't for you, so no need to beat yourself up. Move on to the next one. Now I don't want to change your way of life with this one post lol, but it sounds like your depression has even skewed your outlook/focus. If I could provide one solid piece of advice, it would be to see the greater picture, and that is your life. Many people grow tired of their careers, their relationships with friends/lovers/family, and more importantly, themselves. You're lying to yourself, not other people, if you say otherwise. "I'm comfortable", seems the be the phrase I hear the most when trying to argue this. Well, that's fine and all, but "I'm comfortable" is just the first cry for help. It leads to, in you own words, "repetitive and numb", followed by "feeling scared and stressed about my future". "Is this who I've become now?" "is this really what I want" "Is this going to be me until I die?" We're fucking human. "Too much of a good thing......" (you know the rest) is an outlook on life itself. Try and understand that your career is not your entire life, and that you have other things to look forward too (girlfriend and your friends, hobbies, etc.), so take it with a grain of salt. I'm sure they'd appreciate it too. What I've learned to do, is COMPLETELY understand that my work, my relationships, things I'm passionate about, etc., are separate entities. Your career (and all the other areas) has the potential to cross a line, if not set. How can you enjoy other things, if your career is now a part of it? Are you having fun? I'm not gonna get all deep and shit (I'm busy, sorry) so I'll get to the point. Your career is just that, your career. You want to get paid to do this right? Come in, do some work, clock in/clock out and learn something new the next day. Another day another dollar. It should not require more thought than that. Doesn't it sound really easy when you look at it that way? lol I suppose your first mistake (and YOU ARE NOT ALONE) can be seen as studying a career field with the wrong objectives. Your career is a stepping stone to a better you, better opportunities, and not some mattress you can just slouch on for the rest of your life (I hope you understand my crappy metaphor), as that will be seen as the only thing you want to do by others. Don't place yourself there, because it may be difficult to get out. Some food for thought: If I wanted to do what I was passionate about, I would have studied to be a mechanic instead of Information Security. Eventually though, I would have hit the same point you have, where I no longer feel passionate about it. Keeping my love for working on cars as a weekend hobby, allows me to control my level of interest. same with everything else. Ask any mechanic who went in because they were passionate about cars, and they'll tell you they hate their jobs and the sight of a vehicle lol. Wonder why. Anyway...... Keep checking up on us more often! The more we hear from you, the more we become chums! Don't be a stranger!

If it's a real depression (it may be something that look like depression, neurosis, dysthymia (chronic depression, as in my case), etc.) - the main point on your way to your mental health is a good psychiatrist and therapy. As any other desease, it should be diagnosted and a person suffering from depression should receive treatment. My life was half-ruined and I was close to death before I was forced to start treatment. Friends, goals, etc. are important, but weak... If you never visited psychiatrist - do it as soon as possible. Life is too short to spend it like this... I also felt better when I left the university. I loved japanology, but I was too scared about my future after graduation. I have a specialty related to medicine, so soon I will look for work (and it sounds exciting for me) I still don't have any motivation, but the treatment of depression is very difficult. I hope it will appear, someday... Get well soon♡

This is how I love to remember myself : crying and being sweaty after a MUCC concert XD. First half of last year was amazing XD.

This is the right section for this topic. Dealing with depression is like learning how to love and have a relationship with yourself all over again. I actually think more people are depressed than we would like to admit because our society and the way things are set up are not good for our mental health. We get up, slave all day, come home and have to take care of our personal responsibilities before we hit the hay and do it all over again tomorrow. There's a reason why they call it "the grind"; there's really no end to it if you're stuck in a loop doing something that you don't want to do. Having said that, I would recommend to do what you are doing right now which would be identifying and verbalizing the reasons for your depression and finding things to do that make you happy. Medications and counseling may help in some cases, and I really can't say if it would work for you, but I managed to claw my way out of the dumps with sheer willpower. Find what works for you and stick to it. Depression is a bitch because it's a vicious spiral that makes you feel like there's no way out but down. You only get one life to live. There's no point in spending it hating yourself and what you do.

I let it consume me whole For real though, I've been living with this thing for as long as can I remember and the only way I found to be helpful was through meds. Took me a long time to do it, but I saw a psychiatrist (having health insurance helps, but it might not be readily available to everyone) when things got really bad and it's been a relief since then, although the depression still crawls back every once in a while and I just have to wait until it goes away. Other than that, music and other distractions do make it easier a bit as a short-term solution, as well as being with close friends who won't judge you for feeling the way you do. Depression's made me overthink eveything in my life, but there's a few things that it made clear to me after a while: 1) there's ways to go around it if you give yourself some time (we tend to go hard on ourselves for feeling like this, but it's always better to be reminded to be kind and patient with our own process); 2) we all deal with it differently, so try to not compare what you go through with how other people have it. Take it easy on yourself! I don't know what else to say right now, but I honestly wish you the best in dealing with this.

Yuuki just added another date and got some other awesome news! He named his solo project "kallistie" (I guess that name will be very familiar to you) and his first live with that name will be on 13. April at Ikebukuro EDGE. Supportmember will be: Gt.xxx Ba.KEI(X Made Alcoholic Santaclaus) Dr.しゅう He'll sell cheki again for 1000yen each, old cheki for 500yen each. There'll be atari cheki for a two shot cheki with him too! Support member cheki will be 500yen each. the official twitter account is: https://twitter.com/kallistie_ofc he also mentioned that he is already planning new goods! (nothing about a CD release so far...)

If you have the resources, try to speak with a counselor. If you are still attending university, they might have free mental health services.

yep! I've been saying since reincarnation, they are absolutely THE flagship VK band, and if there's anyone who can extract anything different from this cesspool scene full of bad deg copies and bleep blopy whiny bands, it's them. and yuya has balls the size of the moon, name another band who would choose such an odd structured/tempo song to be an album lead song? Fuckin VK don't deserve these guys, hoping for a major deal to come their way soon, that may allow them to conquer new audiences

Coming this Saturday - Series of 5 omnibus albums distributed by LIKE AN EDISON in the summer of 2017, covering a wide breadth of artists

this is giving me karma teas our depression GOD is BACK y'all!!!!! sacrifice me!!!!

A nice slushy and some D is a good combination.

So much appreciation for MEJIBRAY tonight ... Please come back soon.

Kinda disappointed the MV doesn't have the members but damn this sounds amazing.

My Japanese isn't the greatest, but from the annoucement it says: I took "下記" to mean following (i.e. after the January and February lives) and of course later they use "脱退" which means retirement/withdrawal. If they only meant that he wasn't going to be at a couple of live shows, I don't think they would have used that word. Also I don't think they would have said " 今後も皆様の変わらぬ応援を、ZINとJupiterに何卒よろしくお願い申し上げます。" AKA, everyone please cheer on Jupiter and Zin. I'm pretty he'll be taking his leave.

Yeah like many others have said I don't expect much from what remains of Jupiter. One band is stressful enough but two that do the same style of music is overkill. If Jupiter was a different genre I could see the need for hizaki to juggle 2 projects to fill his creative needs. But they aren't, so I'm happy to see Jupiter either fade out or find their own niche. Feel bad for ZIN though. I hope he knows 90% of our ragging on him is jokes and that he was put into a position that he could never measure up to. I'd like to see him in a band that can cover his flaws and boost his strengths.